our dirty little secret;

Dear Non Existent readers ;

2011-05-12T14:37:00.000+08:00

I am here to tell my non existent readers , I am Moving to a new blog . Do Visit alright?

To those who linked me before , do re-link?

Love Kah Ee,

Don't hesitate to ask me at limkahee@hotmail.com

Sunday February 25th 2007 vs Friday May 6th 2011

2011-05-06T02:22:00.002+08:00

four years apart; this is a "meme - tag" i did at 2007.

1.Last time you fell in love?

- erm..January 2007..

- Currently in love

2. Last movie you watched?

- Ghost Rider..~

- Battle Los Angeles

3. Last shirt you wore before this shirt?

- ermm..some extreme t-shirt

- my what the frack shirt from Universal studios

4. Last thing you held?

- My Mouse..<--computer..-__-

- My iPhone .

5. Last time you cried?

- Last nite..sleep..

-Last Night ( okay some things never change)

6. Last place you went?

- Toilet..-_-

- Downstairs :P , er - I forgot last time i left the house was 3 weeks ago.

7. Last testimonial you got?

- Ohh..erm..dunnoe..-_-

-My school testimonial , i was the best student. okay not really.

08. Last message you got?

- erhh..."K"

- LOL , from Alicia :P because its now 3;30 and i told her i don't sleep "early"

11. Last e-mail?

- lazy check got 73 e-mail in my InboX...

-From Twitter , a private message.

12. Last to call you?

- him..

-My Father.

13. Last you called?

- errrhhh...him oso..

-Teddy - Through Skype

LOVE

1.Meaning of love?

- Love..something that is easy to begin and hard to end..and unforgetable..like war..

-Love, If we can explain love - its not love .

2.Do u trust boys?

- ..must i? lolx.. maybe..some lerh.

- I don't even trust my father , I trust one enough to tell him things;

3.Wanna be with whom now?

- hmm..dunnoe..

- This boy living so far away from me.

4.Kissed anyone before?

- ohh..does my guitar count..? =3

- My First kiss went a little like this - Muahh , and twist .

5. whats your hp number?

- 1-800-Kookie-Penguin-Guitar

-012 2334456 (:

6.What do you think makes a person wonderful?

- Their personality....

-the moment where they start trusting you to tell you things;

7.For you, what is important in a relationship?

- Trust..honesty..

- The chemistry , the trust , the honesty - the Believe.

8.Who do you think is always the cause of

break-up in a relationship? Guy or Girl?

- Guy...the dun have any excuse..

- its the one who's wrong , never a matter of gender;

10.What is the most important thing to you?

- My darl''

-My family, my friends - your believe towards me

11.Will you give everything for the sake of your

relationship?

- Depends..=3

- if he love me enough.

12.Had you ever experience being DUMPED?

- ...>.>'' no..i keep wishing No..

- i went through the feeling of being left alone, not dumped.

13.If you were given a chance to go back in

time what will you do?

- ohh..to many to name..-_- 1st i will go study properly..

- I would not , i am happy with what i have right now.

14. Do you love someone who doesnt love you?

- ohhh..yaa.."cry~"

- I am pretty sure he loves me. Pretty? Nah - Confirmed

15.Why everytime a relationship is over the

guy is the one getting blame?

- Because we blame dem for no reason..

- Its not for no reason , because us girls we are sensitive , they drink to forget girls - we drink to remember those moments with them . we are just , special sensitive souls.

16.What will you do if a gift u gave was given

back to you?

- *take knife*..

- I would be taken aback :O

17.Is it really hard to move on?

- No..Stupid question

- Haha , i clearly wasn't in love four years ago - yes , really hard.

18.If by chance the girl/guy you once love

needed help will you help him/her?

- I dun see why not..

- I really don't see why not .

19.If someone hurts you? And someday the

person asks for your forgiveness will you

forgive him/her?

- maybe..

- I forgive, but i never forget.

20.Do you believe in the saying "Letting go is

easy but letting someone go is hard??

- yeah...

- still do , and always will. but when someone new comes along . well yeah.

21.For every love you give does it pay off?

- ....no..

- Yes.

22. Wat kind of guy/girl r u seeking for?

- i have no idea...-__-''

- I seek for the one who cares , loves - believes , trust me ; in every imaginable way.

four years later ,

i seem to think with common sense . not stupidity .

you wake up late - enter your class with a cup of coffee;

2011-05-03T02:58:00.003+08:00

you know, i was never the one who shows affection on blog - unless its a scandal just to embarrass him virtually, but from my last few post - you can tell i'm serious about this boy, no you wont get to know his name or even see a picture of him ;

you'll have to know him as Teddy, - Yes Teddy Bear teddy ; why? i don't know it's like Nadia from NadNut with the boyfriend's name Ching Chong Boy , which i still find really cute .

well back to the main point ;

You see the teddy bear above? Yes i know it's ugly - don't even bother telling me it's ugly and i wasted my money buying it. DOOOOD I HAND SEW IT.

Step 1:

Cut the Base of the teddy bear legs,hands,body,head,ears.

Step 2:

Sew them all together - and stuff it with Cotton!

Step 3:

Always read the instruction properly- they say don't stuff the ears, i stuffed it anyways - now it looks like mickey mouse. BOOO. Then sew everything together. You get a teddy bear -

I remember watching Cardcaptor sakura , they say making a handmade teddy bear for your loved one is actually something really sweet- and what not i forgot. fml.

this brings me to a very cute conversation with Teddy really -

Me : what are we gonna name our teddy?

him : I don't know

Me : it has a birth certificate also you know

him : where is it? i wanna see it

Me : Its ..somewhere .

him : go find it, if we don't have the birth certificate how are we gonna send him to school? D:

i believe , i can have fun with you

i believe , i can be serious with you

i believe , i believe , i believe.

~~up to you to believe it or not that i am no where near single.~~

~~sorry - no kissing pictures for you on my blog , because well - i look ugly , side profile-y~~

~~(y)~~

i used to sleep at night until well - yeah .

2011-04-24T06:23:00.001+08:00

above is my wonderland , or at least my desk/table/study really - they say you can tell a lot from ones study . but well - all you can tell from my desk is i have three phones and a lot of lotion . Haha i actually wanted to take more pictures and what not , but i got lazy - too bad for you eh , but you'll have to live with the words for now . at least until i get my modem back which has WIFI.

#1. Pictures on the wall

- you can pretty much tell i'm a photography junkie.

#2. Six pen holders

- I am this doodle crazy person - you can tell from the amount of color pens , sharpies , highlighters ,and fountain pen i have.

#3. The tortoise / turtle looking thing on my CPU

- I must say , that thing has a story behind it , it was given to me by the convenience store guy at my national service training camp from sabah. IT FLEW ON MAS AIRLINES OKAY.

#4. three phones

- You wanna know what's the more amazing thing? You can reach me at all three numbers. :O . but one particular number is for one person only. too bad for you aight?

#5. the necklace on my monitor

-its actually from a friend. a few weeks ago, its a ring - with my name engraved inside . it never left my side .

#6. Those candles under the monitor

- I am a candle junkie , i buy candles . I am saving for the yankee candles which costs RM 60 a bottle. ;\ . I just can't stand candles :( Buy them for me? as my farewell gift? they are for sale at parkson Pavilion - the floor where they sell bed sheets and hello kitty things.

#7. those sketchbooks at the end of the book collection

-two moleskine , red and black and two unicorn sketch book ( one not in sight) they are filled with my deepest darkest secrets and desire , if a friend comes by - they will automatically disappear . :P

#8.iPhone 3Gs and 4 box

-yeah , i am not spoilt that way . i got both of the phones like one for less than RM500 each because i am under contract . your phone is probably still more expensive than my iphone.

#9.The post it's on my CPU

- I am a post-it addict , well - i don't know why but , i love post-its . i used 7 post-its pads at Sabah. just by doodling on them . yeah .

#10. The 5 lotions under the monitor

-its actually 2 Crabtree and Evelyn hand cream and 1 Crabtree body lotion and 1 Viva la Juicy , Juicy Couture body lotion . Let say , i stay under the aircond so much - my body is really dry and wrinkly . Hence the amount of Lotion.

#11. The Louis Vuitton Wallet above the books

-its there because i used it just yesterday . Now its back in the dust bag. i got that from my dad for my 17th birthday . my last expensive wallet . unless my boyfriend wants to get me one. yes this is a hint for boyfriends - EXPENSIVE BAGS IS A NEED.

#12. My most prized possessions

- or so it seems.

From Right to Left :

a Simple ruled book,

- For random notes and self study .

Vogue British December 2010,

- The cover was Emma Watson , I just couldn't resist spending Rm28 on a magazine .

Marie Claire Malaysia April 2011,

-The last marie claire i bought .

Vogue USA November 2010,

-It was Anne Hathaway with that gorgeous red Oscar De La Renta dress .

My Micro economy Textbook for Matrix and pre-u,

- i don't find the need for the course i'm taking in June really - and guess what? its almost exactly like my Secondary 5 Economics.

Memoir '10,

- My senior year school magazine - Ahh the memories in it eh?

72nd Edition of the mckk magazine,

- a magazine that i should be envious of .

The Works of Jane Austen,

- I realize that I still have one more book in it to finish .

another note book,

-Bought from universal studio Singapore .

Tagore in mandarin,

- No i don't read chinese , they have "pinyin" - english words that pronounced the chinese character .

My Starbucks Planner,

- Filled with - doodles of hearts .

Immortal Words,

- Self explanatory .

The Art of War by Tsun Zu,

- I am sure all of you heard of it before .

Penguins Love Poem,

- got this spontaneously .

Logomania ,

- think , english idioms but somewhat more explicit .

Eat , Pray , Love -

- The art , Of doing . Nothing .

The New Testament Bible,

- i got it from Camp .

Dracula ,

- Its such a hard book to read , i need a dictionary with me when i read it .

William Shakespeare's Macbeth,

- it means a lot to me , at the back of the book - my parents , Alicia , Eric , Stephanie , Vanessa and Joshua's Number are written , I brought this book to Camp - I guess i figured out who meant a lot to me through those three months eh? .

Random Notebooks at the end.

Well - this concludes the end of my Table Tour . wtf.

Its 6;30 am. I need to sleep.

x Until tomorrow or later.

just because i came off strong -

doesn't mean i didn't fall asleep crying

and even though i act as if nothing is wrong -

maybe, just maybe i am a good liar.

when we first met i didn't know you would be so important to me - you were just the boy that looked good smiling , then i remember talking to you on the phone till late night during weekends , for a moment you were that backstabber to your friend - and then we fell for each other - after that it was history .

how cliche .

i didn't find for love - it found me

i didn't force myself to fall. i just - fell.

goodnight or morning wherever you're from.

bravery is being the only one who knows you're afraid;

2011-04-21T16:06:00.002+08:00

Like a star;

Maybe you write notes like this to every girl- or maybe this is another tactic of yours from being a casanova all these time .

you know i never like posting things like this on my blog , because i know before me there was a girl typing in limerence - and after me , there will be a girl who will be typing in her blog about you , so i rather be that girl who keeps you anonymous for the time-being , who knows later that next girlfriend of yours is a stalker .

#361 . when you know you'r better than his ex.

Sorry I had to ;

~~but the next girl wont even get to compare with me. yes i am going to be a bitch now and say things like this and its not even ego talking.~~

it took me , about three hours to actually post something like this - sorry was never the person who display my affection in public .

yeah those in the pasts on my blog are scandals. its different. Whatever it is - I found that megawatt smile of mine

until then -

lets write a love story ;

2011-04-15T21:13:00.005+08:00

unlike most of you - who go to a private college , apply , pay and start the following monday . I need to apply - and wait for them to send me back a letter and also worry about not getting into a college . I had the dream of going into Taylors or Sunway - apparently my father don't believe in those colleges .

so i applied to another college, and guess what - I got accepted .

The Worst thing is - I wont be living in Kuala Lumpur anymore.

This was drafted a few days ago , when i was in a critical emotional breakdown. Orientation starts May 29th , whoah - that soon? okay fine i still have about one month ; you know , i was told by my father that i will be going Melaka on the 23rd of March , when i was alone at starbucks reading Love Poems selected by Laura Barber , seriously i started tearing up right there right then. AHAHAH AT STARBUCKS HOW LAME. Don't Judge - at that point I felt what Joshua was feeling , needed to move away from his friends and technically his life at KL.

Chapter 1 ; Our Love Story .

Chapter 2 ; Kuala Lumpur .

Chapter 3 ; Melaka .

forty one names;

2011-04-12T17:32:00.003+08:00

you know in life you just tend to meet those amazing people when you go for a trip ; in my case a three month "trip" or three months serving the country . You know they keep saying how bad serving the country is - i beg to differ , apart from the amazing people you meet , you will just have this part of you that you'll never get by going college in January :P yes i am mocking all you first intake college students , because i know at least two is reading .

In no particular order .

Azizan;

or better known as Jee Jan , I was looking for him ALL over Facebook typing his name 'Jee Jan' , Apparently his name is under Azizan -

He is in the same Character Building class as I am , there was an open sharing session . He went out and share , and we all found out he was the leader of his school's cadet , and also a really good gymnast, he did a double back flip infront of us , the picture above was taken by a friend using my camera - another day .

Here we Have Karen

At camp, there is ought to be the one who seeks for attention . the one above bah - second in line is me, - If Karen's name is not called - its gonna be mine. so whatehhell.

Nah - Rasyid Razak.

Or James Bond like the previous post i mentioned

He is like my best friend there , I am serious - he listens to me like how Stephanie and Alicia listens to me & he is nice enough to carry my 20KG bag down the stairs , do you know my first plan was to actually bloody throw the bag down? :P Ahh abort plan.

Micha-

Cheerleader, straight A student , a leader , a singer;

What more can you say about her? almost perfect .

Clare and Effa ;

My roomates - Clare the one on the left , she is this really spoilt and loved daughter , she kinda cries every day :P but she is loved .

Faa Abdul.

The friend - correction the Best friend that i can connect with 99% of the time the 1% is when she talks about her boyfriends :P aku jealous Faa.

Zul Nazrie. or Bob.

You know the names given there - well its just doesnt even connect to your real name ' Bob. - i asked him why Bob , he was like "aiyer - takpe la asal orang ingat" as long as people remember haha - you know from the way he look and talk you'll think he's from Kuala Lumpur , but apparently he isn't i was shock when i asked him - there is not even this Borneo accent to him.

Liang Soon ;

This boy he is useless :P . yet i just wanna put him in here- why? Because he is my Character building team mate - and we were friends - the reason he deserve a spot here is because he saw me tearing up - he called me "wei she muo ni ku" why did you cry? was the first sentence he said to me . - good to hear at least someone cares :P

but i cannot fit all 300 people in one post , because at one point they are all special to me.

Especially this 41 people. - I still remember all forty one names.

Alycia , Mas , Amirah , Liza , Michelle , Anne, Faten , Fitri , clare , MeMey, Fairy , Effa ,Ayang, Fairuz, Faizah, Meng , Faridah, Fazizatul, Ain, Joy , Atikah, Syida, Korina, Fadz, Jocelyn , Cheng , Lily, Nabila, patimah , Lora, Rechel, Rowena , Saripah, Beno, hafiza, zeerah, Teha, Cat, Suhaila, Susanne , Thila.

is that forty one?

Ah , i never get tired of shouting "Charlie - Cepat"

until the next post;

I am nocturnal.

The fund for the land down under;

2011-04-11T04:07:00.001+08:00

Testing one two three , posting this from my iPhone really , let's hope it's working properly .

Oh I have about 7 ringgit and 5 cents . Its a start :P

Di kem wawasan ini; January 3rd- March 13th 2011;

2011-04-03T04:17:00.004+08:00

the last time i actually posted a good post was almost two months ago ; if you guys haven't been following my tweets/old posts - well you probably wouldn't know that i came back from national service less than a month ago; - where i come from , if you're chosen for the national service , you need to go - its the ultimatum really . Let me try to sum up my three months at Borneo Sabah in a blog post orait?

Let me start with Pictures (:

That is my little head of company shoulder boards . Those two stripes mean nothing to me when i am with my forty-two little company members , they are like my siblings.

This picture don't even show half of the forty-two people i lived with for almost three months. when i went back from my chinese new year holiday - the first thing i heard was KAH EE - KAH EE - KAH EE , crap i almost teared because i realize how much i miss them.

A lot of them admitted to me that i was like that older sister they never had ; i wake up at three am just to go to the toilet with them alright -.- imagine that.

This is me- after a long day of activity , tired beat up - sweaty - smelly i must say . but one thing look behind at the locker :P notice those noodle cup? for the win my mum mailed it from Kuala Lumpur.

Those are my roommates - unlike other camps around Malaysia with 24 person a room , at Sabah Only at my camp - we have six in a room , so we definitely share a bond that is tight - really tight.

At camp- we actually have night shifts. or "jaga malam" we take turn - going around rooms until two am ; which is horrible , i almost died from tiredness okay :P

this is Rambo - no , his name is Wan but everyone calls him Rambo , i have no idea why - but it somewhat suits him .Somewhat la . but he;s one annoying bugger.

This is my company teammates . and that symbol - is actually what we call the Charlie Symbol.

they actually thought it was some kind of worm or something :P

let me tell you a story , every weekend we get our phones - and i stay at the Dining hall with my crazy ass best friend Faaaa Abdul to charge our phone.

When physical activity started - i was the most active asthma patient there was .

i was actually banned from doing anything and everything . But i went on anyways - because i cried :P wtf the only time i cried there was when i wasnt allow to go on the flying fox - abseiling and the last day there . dont judge kay it was emotional.

I did the bleep test oh i went from level 3-stage 3. to level 4 stage 3. in three months . and the best thing is i gained weight at camp :P yet my stamina went higher.

throughout the whole camp i had no access to music okay NONE - someone with 6000 songs in their itunes - that is just sad okay like seriously . But then i met James Bond :P okay or so everyone called him James Bond i don't know why - he brought his iPod. i technically made it mine. :P . technically. Ahaha. Well i couldn't help it .

that's me and Joanne - my school classmate - like damn okay , we got into the same bloody camp - without her , i can die.

Everyone Meet James Bond - I mean Rasyid Razak , the owner of the iPod with a soft side for cats. Did i mention there was like 394823842384932 cats around there?

and mr James Bond here is like my best friend there - he was there through thick and thin :P . even till now.

the picture.

yes THE picture.

THE colt m16. Damn .

I can tell you seriously - National Service was fun - For me at least :P

I gained so much , experience and also well - i even saw things . .-.- Yeah at one point i was sleeping with two holy bibles , yes i am a free thinker i know but hey - no harm right? come on - you wake up at three am you see a figure standing there white and black. wtf don't you dare, its now five am - orait close to dawn its alright ahaha.

Okay - Now to actually see if the picture is actually too big or what. ;) good night.

@LohWenJun this is for you;

2011-02-10T11:30:00.002+08:00

*dramatic intro*

as i am typing this , tears trickle down my cheek .

remember how i said that i would camp at your house when i come back from NS? apparently - that didn't happened , i haven't got my kraf-hutan training yet , but when you're reading this , i am probably at Sabah , getting tortured by some random physical activity right now - or i could be in the middle of the jungle already , but if i am not - i will be calling you during my lunch break .

whatever it is Joshua , Have a safe flight - a safe journey - like i said eh , If it was fated - we will be seeing each other soon.

i'm sorry i can't be there tomorrow

I don't like to make goodbyes or farewells long - i'll just make it short and simple .

trust me , your life has just begun - whoah words of wisdom here .

take care my tenth letter .

Muka Cantik berubah menjadi Setan ; bila peluru datang anggap ia peluru kapur.

2011-02-08T10:45:00.000+08:00

by the time you're reading this , i think well - i am on my flight back to kota kinabalu already . Really , they keep saying NS is bad , Ns is this , Ns is that, trust me - once you get used to it , it feels like home . i would say this the first day of chinese new year when i came back I cried , i stated to myself "i want to go home" - shit i was home .

when i was there , at Sabah - a lot of things happened . I became the company leader , they told me "Kah Ee , Kau ketua Charlie - Kau Juga Setan Charlie" just because I can be a leader and the devil at the same time - i guess thats good eh? I gained a nickname there Ee-Ee. Yes Like E-E. Okay , it doesn't seem as bad you know - they remember your name.

Honestly , I am scared - really scared at the camp , but i know that forty-one team member is behind me , they look up to me . Even if its a blackout - i ran to the toilet , just to get them. Sometimes they keep me strong , like how i need to pull three crying girls just to do the blood test , the worst thing - i was poked three times. FML, just because i was a guitar player . they keep me strong ,

well , until March 13 then.

I'm back from NS , but only temporary;

2011-02-06T13:18:00.002+08:00

you see , i was at Sabah for the past month - yes Sabah , Halfway across Malaysia for national service . I thought it would be bad - i thought that i would be bawling my eyes every day for the next month - apparently i didnt , i didnt even bawl more than once - the only reason i bawl was I need to wake up at 4.30am every day -.-' i dare you to wake up every day for 3 months at four thirty am and sleeping at 12 am that night .

I can confirm with you - it felt like i didn't sleep for one whole month .

okay - i am not posting anything forever till march.

take care .

Last Day of the Face challenge;

2011-01-26T15:00:00.000+08:00

Day 30 of the Challenge; Accomplished face .

Its Over.

My next post wont be up till the first of February -

so , have fun , doing whatever you're doing.

Day 29 ; I am not surprised .

2011-01-25T14:55:00.001+08:00

Day 29 ; Surprised face.

25.01.11

Yes, day 29 - one more face of mine and well , you shall wait till Chinese New year .

Bloody Tired.

Day 28 ; Happy Birthday Mummy.

2011-01-24T14:45:00.000+08:00

Day 28; Mischievous face

24.01.10

Happy Birthday Mum.

Its the 24th of February -

the first time i won't be around you during your birthday.

Lets hope Eric texted you what i wanted to say .

if not - he can suck balls :)

DAY 27 - Liquid Luck ;

2011-01-23T15:00:00.000+08:00

Day 27; Puppy Dog eyes ;

23.01.11

liquid luck is almost like the placebo effect ;

almost -

Day 26 ; Crazy face

2011-01-22T15:00:00.000+08:00

Day 26 ; crazy face

22.01.11

my middle name is Kah - but i believe its called crazy.

day 25 ; membosankan .

2011-01-21T15:00:00.000+08:00

Day 25 ; Imma Beat your ass.

21.01.10

shup?

Day 19 at NS .

2011-01-20T15:00:00.000+08:00

Day 24; Tired Face .

20.01.10

I think i am going to be very tired when i come back from NS.

or i could be - more energetic than normal.

lets hope - when i come back,

i am healthier eh?

Day 18 at Sabah -

2011-01-19T15:04:00.000+08:00

Day 23; Annoyed face.

19.01.11

If i am not mistaken , i'll be back in fourteen days.

Or just during chinese new year .

I got nothing to say anymore :(

Day 22; - sha-la-la-la-la

2011-01-18T15:30:00.000+08:00

Day 22 ; Gangsta Face .

18.01.11

As i am typing this , i am actually watching harry potter.

wtf , dear TV- I'm gonna miss you.

Fine - i dont even watch TV ,

i think i'm gonna be sleep deprived

and also - technology deprived .

Booyah ;

one twenty one guns; day 21.

2011-01-17T15:01:00.000+08:00

Day 21; Cool kids face.

17.01.11

i think i look lame - instead of the "cool kid face"

lets all blame it on the rain.

i hope it rains in Sabah every day

so no activities would be outside :P lol.

or at least all of them will be before the sun comes up.

Day 20 - Confused face.

2011-01-16T14:59:00.000+08:00

Day 20 ; Confused Face.

16.01.10

i honestly think - i look like an ape . wtf.

- no thoughts for today-

just - confused.

Day 19 to the face challege ,

2011-01-15T15:00:00.001+08:00

day 19; cute face - you can kill me

15.1.11

the second week i'm gone .

how's everyone?

'curious- i wonder do we get to keep four boots .

wtf - its like , cool okay. . == yeah nvm.

Day 18; TGIF.

2011-01-14T15:00:00.000+08:00

Day 18; Creeper face.

14.01.11.

Yes, its a friday.

My face looks like that if its a Friday. :D

I am so lazy :( BOOOO.

Day 17; getting bored here.

2011-01-13T15:00:00.000+08:00

Day 17; "turned on face"

13.01.10

I look Constipated LOLER.

it's thursday today -

i wonder what are you people doing .

Text Me? I would be reading it Tomorrow night.

Day 16;

2011-01-12T15:00:00.000+08:00

Day 16; Scared face .

12 January 2011.

That face isn't scared

it's almost like - the face of . .

WTF?

Yeah - it's Only the 12th of January ,

two more weeks till I come back for CNY holidays.

Day 15 ; its 11.1.11

2011-01-11T15:00:00.001+08:00

Day 15; Bored Face.

11.1.2011.

Make an epic wish during 11.11 am/pm kay?

- speechless-

Just saying Hello (:

Day 14; My ugly eating imaginary biscuit face.

2011-01-10T15:00:00.000+08:00

Day 14; My ugly eating imaginary biscuit face.

10.01.10

awwh shitz ; it's monday Again. Bye Phone -

I would like i say -

Nothing .

SERIOUSLY I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY.

YOU TRY MAKING THIRTY POSTS!

Day 13; One week - at Sabah.

2011-01-09T12:00:00.000+08:00

Day 13; Sleeping Face.

9.01.2011

Whoah , Its been a week since i'm at sabah -

How is everyone back at KL?

Its a Sunday today - I'll most probably be sleeping now

Why? - catching back all the sleep that i lost the past week.

and I will be tweeting i guess these two days .

Lets Hope - My credit don't run out .

@Stephanie Tang and Eric lee

:P you people shall be my credit buyer while i'm gone.

OwO

to @StephieTang @paperbags305 @aliciaxueli @alarifadiputra TEXT ME.

2011-01-08T09:30:00.001+08:00

Day 12 ; Imma Eat YOO face.

8.01.11.

Yes, Its a weekend I prolly got my phone already-

Hence i used you people as my tittle.

lets hope it shows up on tweetdeck

today's post will be up earlier like 9;30 am.

So that you people who i tagged can wake up- and check twitter

and well - text me lor!

Vanessa - Arif , i brought my 019 Number .

(: . Ask Eric / Stephanie for that number .

If they don't have - well , tell me when i come back.

and then well - I'll kill both of them

a slow painful death.

day 11; 5KM run . TGIF.

2011-01-07T15:00:00.000+08:00

Day 11; Crying Face.

7.1.11.

- Okay - Friday -

Friday is the 5 Kilometer run for us NS people.

DO YOU KNOW SCHOOL AND MY HOUSE ITS ONLY 3.2KM?

HOW THE HELL DO YOU WANT ME TO RUN 5KM?

yeah - hence, crying face .

WOOOHOO ITS THE WEEKEND TOMORROW.

YEAH YEAH YEAH .

Day 10; Laughing Face.

2011-01-06T15:00:00.000+08:00

Day 10; Laughing Face.

6.01.11

Bloody Hell -its so fake .

- Okay , i just scheduled three post

i kinda ran out of things to say .

. . .

till tomorrow :P .

Day 9 ; Unamused Face - You think its easy thinking what to write about?

2011-01-05T15:00:00.000+08:00

Day 9; Unamused Face

5.01.11

They say Wednesday is Aerobics day - I wonder :P

I think You're pretty bored with my posts already ,

but what can i say? I can't do much Lorrrrr.

I can't tweet- might as well keep you entertained with ONE post.

like One blog post a day.

everything will automatically go into my twitter account.

YAY FOR TECHNOLOGY.

Day 8; Rawr Face- but Day three in National Service. @paperbags305

2011-01-04T15:00:00.000+08:00

Day 8 ; Rawr Face

4.01.2011.

to my post yesterday , today is the third day i'm at NS ,

I wonder - Will everything be right side up?

- let me put a note here ,

I miss talking to Alicia, Arif , Eric , Joshua , Nicholas , Stephanie , Vanessa -

expectations on 4th of January , - I miss all those people.

reality - its the 1st of January , i just talked to all of them. AHAHA.

How was school Vanessa - Arif? doing good?

Day 7; These things takes time. or just three days.

2011-01-03T15:00:00.000+08:00

Day 7; Sophisticated Face.

3.01.2011

Do you know it's actually New years Day while i'm scheduling all these posts?

things i do for you . fine- i don't think i even have readers .

Day 2 at NS , Lets hope i am taking it well ,

i can't see the future okay - if i can , i would run away to another country and never come back WOOHOO.

Like what they say '3 days for the world to turn right side up again'

I could be having fun , or i could be starting my january crying in my 'dorm'

Forever alone.

Day 6; I AM AT SABAH PEOPLE - or , i could still be at the airport . or on the plane . I have no idea.

2011-01-02T15:00:00.000+08:00

Day 6; Bad Odor Face .

02.01.11

When you read this , i am already at Sabah , Papar - Okay maybe i am still on a plane.

or i could be stuck at the airport - i have no idea what time's my plane. great.

well - to my Juniors , its gonna be a new school year tomorrow.

and to my seniors , here's to a new term of college.

and to my friends who has gotten first batch in NS .

Don't worry - i'm there to feel your pain.

Until tomorrow , with another face. :P

Day 5; Silly face to a Happy New Year ; follow me @KahDoubleE :P

2011-01-01T15:21:00.003+08:00

Day 5; Silly Face.

1.11.11 ;

sometimes , when life gives you lemon - You bite on the lemon and well produce a silly face.

Its New year People , why are you here reading my blog posts? .

Okay - i am leaving tomorrow.

Whoah - Tomorrow? .

Yeah

Tomorrow.

HAPPY NEW YEAR.

Day 4 , Pissy Face and The end Of 2010 - I think there should be resolutions .

2010-12-31T02:04:00.003+08:00

Day 4;

Pissed off face.

i can be pissy about anything and everything at one point -.

2011 , New Year Resolutions ;

Every year , i come up with a bunch of resolutions that never come true - Burn.

My Favorite Never come true Resolution of every year?

Sleep More ;

AHAHAH - Look its 3;33 am while i'm writing this , and i Wont be sleeping till what? 5 am . Okay Seriously I will die of Sleep deprivation at NS if i keep this up.

So 2011 Only resolution?

Sleep MORE.

I am Leaving To Ns the day after Tomorrow.

FUIYOOO! Its getting closer.

I just Found another Senior who went to the same camp - apparently , every morning when you wake up - check for little worms before you put your legs down .

FML.

Day 3 ; Sad Face - Bang A Drum;

2010-12-30T14:55:00.001+08:00

Day 3 ; Sad Face

30.12.2010

'part of the 30 day facial expression challenge'

leaving in 3 days -

this is scheduled - I'm most probably at KLCC now ,

or I am still Sleeping.

two thousand ten; MMX - 2010 . the year that all my expectations were wrong.

2010-12-30T09:45:00.002+08:00

two thousand 10 has been memorable for me - this year is my senior year . Last year i actually was excited for my senior year , but i actually learn that - My senior year was the worst and the most stressful year - ever.

I look back at my 2010 new year resolution

#5
My new year resolution shall be;
-5.1 buy more shoes;
-5.2 sleep more at night;
-5.3 get healthy and not end the year with another flu;
-5.4 do not bully younger kids;
-5.5 do more good deeds;

I did bought more shoes this year , so i guess it was successful - Sleep more? that failed so badly its not even funny . Get healthy - fine i failed that too , not bullying younger kids? I'll elaborate on that later - Doing more good deeds? Yes Yes I did do more good deeds this year.

I started the year , with well let say Pocket full of hopes, being the oldest in the school and all - and i was looking forward to the photography meeting because in 2009 , i had the time of my life.

A lot of things Happen you see -

Begining of the year ,

I was Happy, genuinely happy - until all the stress popped up .

What i am about to say , might make me sound like some power-crazy-b!tch (maybe i am) but hey - it's all experience and if you decided to follow my "path" be my guess , you'll break down and cry because i did it.

You know , i remember reading one of my ex-senior's blog , She was the president of her club - part of the prefectorial board , secretary of her sports house , co-president of her unit uniform and also in the editorial board. Honestly speaking i was envious of her , i mean - a lot hated her , some thought she was power crazy , bossy and un-friendly and she is also one of the straight A students. How can you not want her life at one point?

when my club, sport house , uniform body , sport meeting -came . I have not the slightest idea of what is going to hit me in the head and how am i going to accept this stress . My first thought was okay - i would be the president of photography and that is all i ask for. guess what. I WAS WRONG. WRONG. WRONG. WRONG. -

during my Sport House meeting , i became the squad commander of the marching team . I stayed back every day - at one point my Malay Language teacher was impressed , I finished all her work , she commented " i see kah ee staying back every thing and she manage to finish all 5 essays " okay - i am bloody flattered okay?

but that didn't last for long seriously -

the sports,club,uniform body meeting was divided into three days .

During the first day - it was the uniform unit meeting - Girl Guide . I was never the "girl-guide-leader" material -.- first i joined the uniform body because it was the "easiest" like when i gave my speech "You join because you thought youre gonna come here and get an easy full marks for your co-curricular points - i was too" AHAHAH. I guess the teachers saw "something" in me and picked me as their president.

and the second day came , The Photography club meeting - hah i was confident during the meeting ;O but it was me against Megat - i remember it perfectly . okay - he didn't even show up for the rest of the year's meeting "laughs" .

You see, photography club made me a happier warmer person .

i was stuck with this gang-gang-malas . which brings me back to another story - I was involved in the marching during sports day , i couldn't help out with the first most important event of the year - i was worried that they messed it up. my official photographers were logs :P logs that i grew to love that is.

and then , last day - the basketball day . I was like "ok-join-basketball-don't-go-for-the-meeting-who-cares" HAH i was wrong again . the teacher liked me , she choose me for the president - Until today you people still hate me for being the president , i know :P hah who cares. but hey - i didn't let you people down. during the game season , i went to the jersey shop eight times to get their jersey fixed. why? simply because i was the president i have to do all this. because my vice is an ass- he didn't bother doing it.

but at the end. i grew to love them like my brothers. that i want to kill everyday AHAHHA as much as you wanna kill them - they make you happy

you see, I was the president of all three co-curricular activity , there was haters alright . i guess you can't make a thousand friends without gaining a few haters along the way.

My whole year revolve around all these after school activity - did i mention i was the head of the photography department for the editorial board?

for some people this people , this is the best thing that can ever happen to them , for me? it was a truck load of stress that i don't wanna go through ever again. I was forced to leave class for meetings , i was forced to not attend extra-classes , with great power - comes with a price. the price of not excelling in class. My Results was truth to be told - Horrible. i Never paid attention to classes the whole year , and the worst? i was sitting for my MCE (SPM) this year.

Random things that happened in 2010 ;

I started wearing contact lenses to school Damn it was horrible.

I went universal studios , IT WAS FANTASTIC.

I was in a "relationship'' during the middle of the year - close to thirty likes on facebook and well - people said "FINALLY" AHAHA. Joshua , you think i would let you forget this ? NO NEVER. :D till today we're still the best of friends.

I camwhored in class soo much , its not even funny anymore.

I had a birthday bash at Jogoya - and boy , was we happy ? :P

and another thing? I graduated. I am a high school graduate. damn

on my last day of school , we made alicia feel tall.

and during school class party- we gave up on our dignity ahaha.

by year end , My trials result came out - it passed the requirement to get into a college which is five credits - but i didn't have the choice to go to a college , i was forced to serve the country - which is also in three days.

before MY MCE (SPM) started , we had this long line of teachers - who wishes us good luck , apparently these are the things that my teacher said about/to me -

- Kah Ee , senyum sahaja tak pernah tengok muka sedih

(always smiling , never once see a sad face)

- HAH , WHERES MY PICTURE?

(i was in charge for the photography pictures)

- I love you Kah Ee, Don't forget me

(with that , i started crying wtf)

- Stop being so hyper.

- HIGH FIVE.

(that really happened my teacher gave me a high 5 BOOYAH)

in two thousand ten ,

i made a lot of promises

i fulfill those promises

and i even broke some.

in 2010 -

i lost love but i also gained love.

but truth to be told - i wouldn't live past 2010 , without my friends .

You know who you are

so 2010 you will be missed.

Day 2 ; Happy Face. ; Darlin' It ain't easy .

2010-12-29T14:55:00.000+08:00

Part of the 30 Day Facial expression Challenge.

Day 2 ; Happy Face.

29.12.2010

"what do you mean by i can't just throw in mentos,macbeth,plaster,hoodies,tee-shirts and Toothbrush just like that and i need to pack?"

I like to make people happy (:

Vanessa - Don't fret , i'm sure you'll have the time of your life next year.

Why? Its Your Senior year.

the joy of returning to school and being the oldest there.

Arif - Next year , is your what they call "honey-moon year"

:P ahh , lepak saja la kay?

30 day facial expression challenge ; When I'm Gone.

2010-12-28T02:59:00.000+08:00

Day 1 ; Regular Face.

28.12.2010

See I'm leaving for National Service in 5 days

FIVE. Damn - I don't even remember being patriotic .

but you see, that is not the point -

my point is that i took this 30 Day facial expression challenge.

And i am scheduling about 30 Posts , a post each day So it's as if i never left.

Yes - i Like to keep things . . Interesting i guess you can say that .

So Do come back to check it out aight?

I'll be updating my twitter Every Weekend or when i get access to my phone.

cheerio then .

last christmas i gave you my heart, and the very next day you gave it away ;

2010-12-25T22:51:00.002+08:00

this year, to save me from tears - i'll give it to someone special.

Happy Christmas People

Leaving to serve the country in a week,

how time flies. how time flies .

everyone repeat after me , freedom . F.R.E.E.D.O.M; -

2010-12-23T10:41:00.003+08:00

alright, alright - i admit i'm a bit late on the "freedom" post which should be up on Monday for all SPM students 10' but i'm a tad - bitttt - late , what can you say i have been busy. really really busy. with the Malaysian Certificate of Education and all -

but i guess, life isn't what we all expected like what everyone say "life after SPM rocks" yeah not really.

see this is the back of my door, for the whole 1 1/2 month . but on the 20th , i cam back i tore it all ==' because i'm just happy that its finally over.

spm - its finally over . i have other problems to deal with.

National Service, I'm flying to sabah In - let see . less than 9 days.

People Start College on the 2nd , i am serving the country on the 2nd .

on a whole other note , i am happy that i'll be flying off to sabah , knowing that its not even near to Cheras - the joy.

20th December 2010

My last Paper

Alicia, Eric and I .

on the day of my last paper , i never felt so much pressure coming on to me really - wait what do i mean by pressure ? you thought all my papers are finished i should be relieved? no , here's where the problem begins - no more being spoon-fed no more people that you grew up with , its all up to you now . another post on that later . :P

12th December 2010

Po-po-po-ker Day

It was at joshua's , I cooked - and it tastes good.

we kinda did nothing but , poker and eat , and mamak and poker and eat more.

11th December 2010

Alicia's Church Carnival .

two words, HAD A FANTASTIC TIME.

wait , thats four words. -.-

SPM's Over Now what? Oh yeah National Service.

Oh , I'll have about 10 scheduled post on January.

Do come back every weekend alright?

People don't change. Only their costumes do ;

2010-12-17T23:54:00.002+08:00

you see, the past month , it was the Malaysian Certificate of Education month - making it impossible for me to be free. - but guess what , the worst part is everything seems to be crashing down at the particular month . How N came telling me things that i shouldn't know , how I know that i wont be around during February when J leaves , how My grandmother is in the hospital's ICU , How my uncle passed away the first week - i guess sometimes , you wanna ask ' is this god's joke , or the devils plan - or the devils Joke and Gods plan , i guess its a test , testing how strong we are . and you know - the past three days , i've been everything but fine - i cried my heart out , i even hid away from society .

this is me, 12 hours ago;

this is me, 6 hours ago.

you know, its almost like a cycle - every year i do something to my hair at the beginning of the holiday - funny thing is , i chop my hair each year before i went emotionally unstable . but this year , i did it during that moment , yeah , its almost like cutting off my hair means cutting off a part of me that i hate , maybe for some people they dye it red,brown,blonde. everyone they have different way of changing , but the point is - men dont change , their costumes do -

on a whole other note , today is the 18th December 2010, eric's birthday.

He's almost like a sis- i mean brother to me.

see that boy being attacked at one corner? yeah thats Eric.

Happy Birthday Eric.

this i remember ;

2010-12-10T02:03:00.004+08:00

i'm sorry all my posts have to be filled with words and long words. - remember how three weeks ago, i lost an uncle? You see - my paternal side have always been big - like really big , my grandfather married a few times, making me having more than one grandmother really - funny isn't it ? you see , my father has always been the black sheep of the family , always the one to blame , and my mother? well she was called the witch when my dad brought her home "chuckles" well here's a part of me you have never heard of . Well , my mother went against my paternal grandfathers words and named me Kah Ee instead of Pui Ee - she found that name too girlish for her liking and pop comes out Kah Ee , yeah life history here.

getting to the point - Soon enough.

this year itself i have been to a few funerals , one a grandmother who is in Ipoh , and one which is an unknown relative - sorry big family. yeah - heres the confusing part , i know my paternal grandmother passed away beginning of the year , but that grandmother isn't my fathers biological mother , i don't play a big part in that story. but just yesterday morning , my grandmother was admitted to the hospital , v-fibbed and her heart stopped for a few minutes .

i was at school , sitting for my commerce paper when that happened , right after that i stayed at the hospital till four pm. you know the funny part? she was on life support her blood pressure dropping , without the help of technology and medical- it would be a flat line we see on that monitor .

when i walked in that intensive care unit yesterday , none of the patients in the room were conscious , they were all in pain - tubes in their mouth helping them breath - iv's connected to their blood streams . it was as if , they have already gave death their address and its just waiting for death to be free and once he is he will be visiting . You know when i walked into the room , there was an aura , an aura that seemed like everyone there is already half gone .

when i touched the hand of my grandmother , let me tell you the ironic thing about it , it was my hand that was ice cold - and hers was warm .

the doctors say they did their best- i wouldn't question them , but honestly - when was the last time you hear a doctor say "now all we can do is hope for the best" you know - those are the words that i hear in episodes of greys anatomy , and guess what - the best never came for most of them . I did something bold to - i asked him , have you seen cases like this before? whats the chance of surviving ? he did not gave a direct answer . he looked at me and said 'we did all we can , now all we need to do is cross our fingers and hope for the best'

you know - i have been brought up Looking at glasses half empty - i never liked being positive , maybe sometimes when you be negative , the slightest positive will affect you a lot .

i want to wake up knowing that i will be spending the weekend with Alicia, and going to Joshua's on sunday

-and not at a funeral .

because this way , i know that my grandmother will still be alive.

if you could; what would you do?

2010-12-03T12:19:00.002+08:00

Day : 01 . Write a letter to the people that you have drifted away from and now you miss dearly.

Dear tenth letter;

how do i start this letter? i never really like writing something to you - it takes about 7 drafts. haha, remember 2009? April fools? , i knew you were shocked 0: yeah i was too. and recently - i just figured out that you still read my blog. would you be reading this too? hah , now we shall just wait and see. at the end of 2009, i told to myself "this . is . my . best . year ." and you're the reason why . yes you're still talking to me know , but i guess we have drifted apart compare to last year, we need to at least talk to each other once just to go to sleep at night. Remember the song Situasi by Bunkface? Engkaulah destinasi ku. Remember how i texted you asking "Di manakah Destinasi ku? - you replied di Mr Wong" okay i think my memory is gonna creep you out. sometimes when i look at something that reminds me of you, i still smile like a crazy fool- remember the apartment , klcc ? strawberry pavlova , or Bubbles that you blew? Godiva? . we did so much together that i cannot look at something without thinking of you at one point. and now while typing this i am smiling. but i know that next year when you leave , i wont be around i will be at Sabah with the Colt m16; Honestly , the reason i even wanted second batch was because of you. what have i gotta loose? its the end of 2010, you need to know anyways. Well until then , this is all i can say. Don't worry during the Chinese New Year break when i come back, you'll see my face every day. you'll hate it.

Dear smaller me, but the darker me;

this dates back to 2008, Remember how crazy and close we were? until you said "i'm moving- i need to be closer to my fathers work place" that hurts, because i know i am to loose a best friend. but till today, two years later i still call you every week and we never, i mean never run out of things to say . its almost like the distance brought us closer. EHH WAIT- that make me sound like some lesbo, we both know that isnt true :P haha . remember how you slept over at my place? and painted our nails my dad commented how it looked like liquid paper? AHAHAH. okay, recently when i was talking to Nicholas, he reminded me so much of our form three years, where you fell infront of our class teacher- remember? and how every time i come down from the stairs people will continue "ehh tunggu esther pasti akan turun" - but really i shouldn't even put you in this section of the blog, it seems like we never grew apart.

if i were to write every single person that i miss, my webpage will be filled with words, maybe another day . another day . but right now. live with it.

you came, like the rain, burns me consumes me;

2010-11-30T22:40:00.002+08:00

those who actually followed my twitter, knows that my phone fell into the water 2 days ago, yes Water. iPhone; i panicked i didn't know what to do so i just put it in a bowl of rice. apparently two days later which is today, It's alive. 'lesson learnt.

i start my everyday with a shot of espresso, and end it with a cup of americano- i can still sleep soundly. great isn't it?

at one point, i tried a non-alcholic beer. it tastes like Malt , nothing too special about it.

Today, i spent my day singing soul sister- one twenty-one guns- american reject all kind of songs.

taken by my father; okay i didn't even notice a shot was snapped.

its November 30th today, the last day of November - wow December is tomorrow , my november wish was to dominate world- okay that wasn't it. It was to drink less coffee and go through SPM without any problem. So far- yes SPM has been really good to me. but December is coming, December wish? Nothing- why? If god is listening - i know he is , he will listen every second of our lives and not only at the end of every month and the beginning of a new one.

Goodnight November,

Hello December ;

no one can tear it apart; cos a heart that hurts is a heart that works ;

2010-11-24T19:32:00.003+08:00

study group; yeah this is what i learned -

when you shit hard, your toilet bowl will break

yeah all of the others was so useless - i well, forgot.

before i left- Nicholas said : I realize that we're not studying .

that took him long.

note to self; group studies equals to well- not so studish la.

2 Down; eight to go.

life is fragile ; really fragile -

2010-11-23T21:47:00.002+08:00

This is my spm face; Can you see the mosquito bite mark ? damn - it looks like a bloody hickey slash love bite. yes My Last moments with my Kerusi Book. :( sad alright?

I went to starbucks during my 3 hours and 45 minutes break.

yesterday 22nd of November - my uncle got into an accident , and automatically he was killed on the spot. i guess, life is really fragile. like they say - i just came back from his funeral , there is nothing much i can say - i don't see them much , as bad as this sound i only see my relatives during chinese new year, weddings and also funerals. which i rather not see them at all.

no one there recognize me, no one there i recognize - the last time i saw them was 2009 , end of the year . when i was inside - the face of my smiley faced uncle stared back at me . he looked peaceful . happy . the last time i saw him was chinese new year of 09' he even poked me and say "when are you gonna loose weight?"

more than a year later, you know , i was looking forward to next years chinese new year hoping to poke him back say , hah i lost weight - when are you gonna gain? . sadly i guess i wont be able to do it anymore . this proves a lot. so much ---

the proves that , life is fragile - you can be very much alive one second, the next - you're pretty lifeless. and no pun intended , sometimes i wonder is there something that we are meant to do in life? we keep saying that there is something - something big out there that is meant for us ,

-- i wont continue anymore because , you see - if i do i would be writing a thesis

. . . 1 paper down. nine more to go . . .

felix felicis;

2010-11-23T01:13:00.002+08:00

felix felicis; - Liquid Luck.

Malaysian Certificate of Education or commonly known as SPM is tomorrow , Here i am blogging away , like Bryant Says - The day before his SPM "lepak aje" before he went to sleep, he feels scared.

well, heres to all my SPM candidates friend - all the best , we wont bring it to our graves - don't worry.

i sat at starbucks, writing 17 notes. cracking my head.

the french Army;

I guess, we look different every single angle.

Muka Gay.

Martin, - full stop -

2010-11-16T17:25:00.001+08:00

16.11.10

Happy Birthday You.

even when you're emotionless.

and even when you're tired.

i'll be there to let you nag me.

i know i just posted 3 hours ago, i'm gonna do it again at 3;07 am;

2010-11-11T03:07:00.003+08:00

i finarry found the guts to do the before and after picture :P

October 2009; November 2010;

May 2009; November 2010

i was that girl on the left; i can proudly say was.

what happened ?

i wanted to stay healthy okay.- and i did , i cut off all Junk Food and Fast Food -.-' miserable life i lived the past year , i got used to it -

in 3 hours i need to be up the stage collecting my certificate.

bakal menduduki spm dalam 13 hari;

2010-11-10T20:56:00.002+08:00

this is what i do in school; and i have a major exam in thirteen days.

aiyer- You don't bring it to your grave . i'll worry about my STPM.

what goes around comes around;

malaysia international fashion week;

2010-11-04T21:27:00.004+08:00

you see, my mother was an Ex Fashion designer and an ex model too ; and guess what? - here's the sad part i got NONE of her model genes, but when it comes to fashion and style i'm glad i got a little bit of her genes . you can say that i'm the girl who can spend Rm 18 on a vogue and another thing is that, i was brought up by my mother in a very painful and harsh way . "you look fat in that" "its ugly" -.- on all those things that i thought i look nice in. so i guess in a way having a fashion designer mother do pay off.

did you even see a part of my iphone?

._. yay for Free Applications, they are all really useful . no kidding. for what?. drooling for that pair of louboutins. "start singing Jennifer Lopez's Louboutins"

but one thing my mother taught me after all these years is "never be a fashion designer" "be the woman who wears designer" - So , maybe i belong in the seats of those MIFW . ahh just Maybe.

when i realize that the 8th Malaysian MIFW is happening from 2-6th i was ecstatic , dayum - i tried getting the tickets through other media's i guess i wasn't lucky enough. there is so much things i would do for those pass really "WILL LIE /STALK/ FOR MIFW PASSES" .

and you know whats best? Its all Buatan Malaysia, fuiyoo. how can i not be proud ?

but maxis is being generous and giving fashionsavy out there a chance to win two pass and rm500 shopping vouchers, you heard me. five hundred ringgit for shopping, i mean - all fashion savy are 99% shopaholics no?do visit http://maxis.nuffnang.com.my/ for more. (yes another awesome contest by nuffnang)

things i look forward to at the MIFW is actually the Fashion Gives Back. when you speak of 'couture fashion' the thing that comes into mind is really "money" maybe its time for the other way round eh? and its a fashion show, what more do we look forward to? Models, tall- blonde- pretty models.

This picture was taken last wednesday, I'm now dying to see the real one , saturday night perhaps? :X

can you see those beautiful fashion portraits , which i presume its by Bustamam? part of the 100 Faces Exhibition.

and what would i show up in if i do get to go?

red carpet, hmm. the funny thing? My school's prom in December, the theme is red carpet.

shoot, i havent got a dress yet. but if i have to choose it will be that bodycon,

Picture taken June-12.

want to see a recent one?

I think i need to learn how to liquify . :P i'm feeling sorry for your eyes .

I PROMISE I'LL DO 40000 Sit Ups On Friday Night if i get the chance.

i'll put on that 5'' stilettos and boom, ready to rock till dawn.

because i found out about this so late :( i cant write a longer better post. dayum. its quality not quantity.

well, fingers crossed now. xx.

oktoberfest;

2010-10-31T22:32:00.003+08:00

ahh, october - you've treated me well, with lies; betrayal; and even love. i don't know what to say about you really. last years october - i blogged everyday this october i blogged 9 days. 10 including this. *laughs* , reading back one of the post last year made me tear up, try reading october 11th post. funny isn't it how so much changed since then? - in my blog you'll now be known as the tenth letter, ahh surprise surprise you're still reading my blog. we'll get to that part later on really.

october . i graduated.

october . i made new friends.

october . i learned lessons.

october . i learn that nothing lasts.

october . i finally felt betrayal.

october . i loved again.

october . i missed my tenth letter.

october.

good night, good night October.

barbequesaucejoshuailoveyoudontkillmeforputtingyourpictureonmyblog

2010-10-29T00:10:00.004+08:00

There is one way to show the real you.

Webcam;

i do not sparkle under the sunlight, i do not drink blood, but i do not sleep;

almost like torture to the eyes you say?

you see, i am like this person who doesn't sleep at night, nor in the afternoon , nor the evening, i can live with 2 hours of sleep a day . and go on for a week. but at one point i'll break down and go emotional. i think its insomnia.

on a whole other note-

This is my crooked smile boy, Joshua -

Head full of hair and his halo watching face.

-removed-

this is joshua, 15 hours later after that screen shot was took

shoot, hair goes bye bye.

-i love you joshua don't hate me T______T-

its hair, it will grow back - eventually.

the universal language, body language;

2010-10-27T01:01:00.002+08:00

body language, what comes into mind? - no not Jesse McCartney's "hey Ooh that, body body language" song. but the famous question- HOW do you read ones body language?

Boom, the first thing that came into mind - sophisticated but faking it for Stephanie and me egoistic because i look nice;

Aaron, awkwarddddd- this shows that one is not close enough to open up to the person they are standing next to. standing straight also means intimidated by the photographer. My Mother.

well, this shows how close this three are. Alicia, awkward moment because she don't know that this was suppose to be a fun and carefree shot; Eric- showing that he's playful. Me- im just plain hyper. whole other story.

You see how this picture has the "i must look good and sophisticated" feel? because its taken by Joshua's Dad , whom i respect . No Farney Faces!

Manoj, Can you see that " :O heh face" ? it shows that he is not happy ;P but just playing along because he is nice. and Aaron, well he just don't know its taken.

the same people different photographer. - a whole other story, my mother. HAH. "boom model face"

No matter what language we're speaking, the most important one is actually body language, knowing that sometimes some people are too stupid to read it saddens me really.

my blogging , thingamajig is back. so More posts for you! (:

I'm still breathing;

2010-10-24T03:06:00.003+08:00

remember my previous post? about graduation. well now i'm a graduate at least a high school one.

you see sometimes, its not about who stayed for the longest in your life, its actually about who came and who supported you all these while. From left to right Stephanie, Alicia, Eric and I.

you see i was never the 'petite' one of the group so yeah, i have to look big and bully-ish;

ahh, random photo that i decided to jump into. smart eh?

This is Wan Jiun, i would like to call her my successor next year for photography club;

i was starting to think that bringing the neverful was a bad idea. so i gave it to my Body Guard.

From L-R ; Pei San, Farah, Joanne , Mei Ling , Me , Luqman and Rabbani.

These are the people i deal with at school every day. and at one point i want to kill them.

Can you feel the glam here? the "whoaaah-hell yeah!" kinda feeling? that looks like i'm walking a runway? no photoshop other than altering the color!

you know they say jump shots are not easy? well- imagine jump shots in heels really.

this was unintentional , i was on the phone with my father. and stephanie took the picture. let say i look nice in a weird way.

Alicia , Eric , Me; during the picture Eric's mother shouted DO NOT COVER YOUR MOUTH ERIC!.

this is stephanie, whoah Who? the one you always see on my blog, well this time she dressed well sophisticatedly . amazing :P

Samantha, my kindergarten friend . can you imagine this? I wore my kindergarten graduate robe with this girl, then my primary school one and now the secondary one. oh how time flies :(

This is me, with flowers and teddy that i ~~stole~~ - lend from people

this one, well lets say that it was on the floor and i couldn't resist.

Wye Toong; compare this and the one below, this one feels a weee bit awkward.

Joshua; can you feel the old era- seventies kinda feeling here? I am to print this and to hang it some where :P

Shot #1

there is actually a story behind this picture;
see Manoj :), Kah Ee :D, Joshua :].
we are all close together

Shot #2

Manoj :| , Kah Ee :D , Joshua :}
Joshua Loh, did you just pushed Manoj away?

kappish? let your imaginations run wild. :P

i can now say i am a graduate from high school.

once a SBS, always a SBS;

-next post , after graduation .

my dear, tenth letter.

promise me that you wont let me give up that easily,

promise me that- if one day we stopped talking to each other you'll keep me in your heart at least? because i am going to stay there, like how you're going to be in mine

so we talked all night about the rest of our lives;

2010-10-23T01:44:00.000+08:00

like the bloody saying goes, the friends you make in college knows who you are high school knows why you're like so.

remember this? 5 years ago , we were all so different, physically and mentally . the funnier part, Ming Chau the first from the left- left for australia , Ivan- hah grew into a fine young man, Manoj? the tall guy in the middle- the head prefect, straight A plus student , Jun Wah the boy in front of Manoj - a chubby boy in the picture you see now? a good looking one. Jee Yee , was never really close to her but she changed a lot too ahh Sally- moved away four years ago just to the school next door really but it was never the same after that, and now she is that hot girl that everyone adores. and the one in green baju kurung; - Me funny isn't it how my face still remained the same after five years when everyone grew out of their baby face? i guess i am the one with the oldest face back then;

you see, people don't accept changes- most of us don't , change is a part of us biologically or not- our cell in the human body are ought to change every seven years wether we like it or not we are changing , but right now i like to see change as a change of clothes,hairstyle and not who we are and not who we hang with because we know that one day they will have to leave we all do but at this moment when you're reading this there is a bunch of friends who is running in your head right now, and that bunch is the one that you should and will be keeping in contact with or that one who their kids will be calling you god mother or god dad.

but now this post is about a whole other thing, we can get sappy another day-

in about 7 hours i would be wearing the green robe , leaving high school in a months time. funny how the year treated me- giving me opportunities to meet a lot of people, giving me the chance to actually get involve in so many things that i even hate the weekend because i get calls from teachers and friends. hah i know you wouldn't want to be reading my life story and you prefer reading posts about parties and food but hah, too bad .

when the teacher gave out our robe , everyone removed it from the bag right there right then and put it on, do you know what's the funny part? we haven't even got all our trials results yet and people are already in the graduating mood.

some couldn't wait to graduate, some just wants to leave the school but me i am in the category where i wanna stay in school longer , those four walls when i stepped into the building 6 years ago for my registration , it looks so big- so wondrous full of mysteries that we will soon be solving, everyone looked so big .

and as i was enrolled there the first day of school- the seniors were really nice.

-- well unlike me and my friends the first day of my juniors i scared the hell outta them. i mean come on you just couldn't help but say HELLYEAHIMFINALLYASENIOR.

then the second year flew by like no bodies business

the third went by smoothly- studies sucked like hell. but i lived through it.

and the fourth, my most memorable year- i was in a new class a new environment if you go through my achieves, i was in this horrible mode where i hated everyone because my bestfriend moved school that year, i was recessing alone , sitting at the library- not eating during recess but then eric , stephanie came into my life right after that alicia did too.

but during form four, another special one came into my life- very special really by typing that i feel the tears forming already . Yes you, my tenth letter in the alphabet came along. hah- i love you and i still do not the same way but i still do.

and now in form five, my last year my senior year.

i am in a class filled with beauty products addict, no. i am not kidding- there are people who sell contact lens, clothes, come on anything you ask for even perfumes.

they are the people who can push me on the table and i still look happy.

dear blog, sorry i've been neglecting you ; i have the inspiration to blog just not the time.

well tomorrow i will write again.

its now almost two. that makes 6 hours till i wear the green robe :P

good night.

the day i didn't follow the dress code and got lost; Vaseline Party-- Nuffnang.

2010-10-06T16:51:00.003+08:00

you know, at one point in our live- we either over dress or under dress or well -not follow a dress code.

one hour before the party started, my room was like a war zone; shoes every where in denial that i cut my sole the night before sticking plaster on it trying to walk in heels apparently i was well - not walking straight in them so i pull on a pair of converse and my black qipao/cheong sam.

i left the house at 4;30 pm. and i got lost around Jalan P.Ramlee.- I finally found the pan global Building after three rounds at jalan P.Ramlee. I went up to the lobby and BOOM, i see people crowding there in Pink,White,Yellow . i feel dark. in that black Qi Pao. D:

On the way there, i saw this sign board that made me feel - a little bit disturbed. -_- someone sue the person behind this idea, come on if i were an Egg i would go for being a chicken or something not an omelet with bread.

registration , ahh- the nuffies - pretty in pink,white and other sweet colors.

goodie bags galore- inside a few bottles of vaseine which can last you to about a year.

Here we have Serge, or better known as Dustyhawk to the bloggers. I want to thank him for bringing me there.

the event is held at Luna Bar, 34th floor? or was it 33rd. bad memory much.

the place was almost perfect for dates.

pool, comfy seats, over look half of KL. what more could you ask for?

Bokeh shot of KL .

I met lovely people that night.

Here is where i test my memory of remembering names.

this is Myra (:

this is Yuna. a local artist.

this is Audrey, she blogs at fourfeetnine she is the cutest girl i've ever met.

epitome of cute.

Nana, Joanne, Me, Mimi, Suzai, Myra and, Mimie

there is this other group picture that i don't know where it flew to.

this is vince.

Serge;

Suzai , sweet girl :) she blogs at sizzling suzai;

i waited so long for food D:

unlike someone, who jumped to the table first.

i wonder who-. OwO.

Got meh? :P

girls there that night, really made me feel ugly.

I kinda figured out why do they call me Kahee . it sounds like Ka Hee.

FML.

Once, in awhile you know that feeling you get when you're being watched?

i can has that feeling.

thank you Nuffnang, thank you Serge, thank You vaseline.

pabila kau merenung matanya ku rebah, jatuh ke bumi;

2010-10-03T01:17:00.002+08:00

thank you the guy behind dustyhawk for taking me.

the theme was white,yellow,pink.

i kinda got lost in black. T____T'

October leafs falls;

2010-10-01T17:04:00.004+08:00

it took me about 8 tries to sign in to my photobucket account. thats sad;

sometimes every picture tells a story;

here i am,

on the bed- this is where i spend most of my nights. with the macbook

even when the computer is less than 4 feet away.

and most of the time

i am outside, eating parfait

or i could be lazing at home;

Staring at those happy memories.

and stalking people on twitter.

once in awhile

or i would be stuffing myself with mentos

but when i do feel nice,

i buy a viva glam lipstick and all the money goes to charity

but when monday comes,

i can't wait for the 5 p.m. mamak and 6 p.m. tuition with a bunch of hooligans

but when i reach home at 8;15.

only my cat will bother talking to me.

or meowing to me.

then the next day i would look on the bright side;

because i just get good food,

someone look at that and think back what Joshua did during Jogoya.

when i feel like cleaning the room;

i would go deep into my cupboard, then when i find something interesting

i forget about cleaning. FML

my mother,

an ex- model fashion designer, thats why i like shopping with her,

unlike all the other mothers they say "oh you look good"

my mum will just say "you look fat"

that technically concludes my daily life.

Okay not really. there is this big part that you dont know;

i am the secret love child of a vampire and well a socially awkward penguin.

Wall makeover; in a clear view there's a sillhouette

2010-09-30T17:13:00.002+08:00

if I was love
how can I expect to be love when i not love myself first?

are you moist enough?

2010-09-26T02:23:00.003+08:00

okay, as if my 'readers' didn't come here by searching "dirty secret blogs" now with the tittle, i am sure my blog will be filled with ..lets leave it to your imagination.

so tell me, do you have dry SKIN. YES SKIN not. dry other place.

those who know me well enough, knows that i stay under the air-cond 24 hours a weekends and 12 hours a school day. why? i am like this polar bear . i like the cold.

but researches are made, staying under the aircond is a big nono if you want nice silky skin.

hence. look at me.

every girl's nightmare to actually have dry hands. why? because we like to hold onto boys hands and let them know we have soft hands.

THIS Is how a soft pretty skin should look like.

but of course, there is always something i would like to call miracle that comes in bottles.

Vaseline;

i wouldn't lie, i've been using vaseline since 17 years ago. my mother says that she uses it on my buttocks. wtfbbqsauce, you know too much now.

I WAS A MERE TODLER, -.- and i have rashes. T__T' stop judging me. wtc.

I find vaseline perfect for those clean freaks like me, it doesn't leave this oil trace behind, it literally disappears. what do you mean you don't believe me? just go buy it and try it.

plus, their total moisture its in soya and oat extract. come on- after putting it on, i'm sure you wanna take a bite ;D .

now, vaseline came up with a new range; Total Moisture, Healthy White, Intensive Rescue, and Aloe Cool and Fresh.

shoot, i lived under a rock so long -.- i don't even know. FML.

now stop reading my blog and go have a look at the new vaseline range. HERE

reason number 298434932 why i am single;

2010-09-26T01:42:00.002+08:00

after recess i went up to my friends class.

Joshua : So What starts with P ends with o-r-n?

Eric : O_O .

Joshua : Popcorn - Okay so starts with a F ends with a u-c-k. FIRETRUCK :D

*Wye Toong and Aaron Laughs*

Me : Okay okay i got one- So There is 3 woman eating ice cream- one is licking, one sucking and one biting. which one is married?

Aaron : The one who is sucking.

Me : the one who has a wedding ring on her finger . :O

= = My name is Kah Ee. and i make dirty sick jokes with immature boys.

i just find the need to update.

So I grab my bags and go, as far away as I can go, Cause everything ain't what I used to know;

2010-09-23T13:00:00.002+08:00

Random Picture Blast . Because I miss my readers- as if i have any and i Miss my blog.

Yesterday was Mid-autumn festival. any lantern burners around? Put Your hands up.

Of course , i couldn't play anything, couldn't even stand near the heat.

Who knew one day of waking up early could kill you that quick

"crappy resize-er decided to go wrong"

even when in the state of 'i-am-gonna-dieee' - i still choose to be unhealthy.

I find cup noodles almost like - the greatest creation

come on you cannot deny right? meat,vege,everything in a cup.

this is why i get sick so often.

incase you forgot how cute i look;

I am actually still that cute :D ForTheWin.

i need you to hold all of the sadness i can not, living inside of me;
tell me where am i suppose to go and who am i suppose to trust.

if only you knew what i knew-

2010-09-10T22:43:00.002+08:00

sorry for being missing in action from the blogosphere. :( i miss my dirty little secret. ahaha.

I am here to wish all my Muslim friends Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!

"a year ago's yesterday . september nine;"

sorry i have this thing with dates.

a fact that you never knew #oo2

2010-08-29T19:55:00.002+08:00

I love my shoes, from Converse-heels-flats-boots. every thing. i have this special love for my five inch heels.

Here's Fact Number Two.

I am destined to not wear heels around boys.

As Much as i Love my heels- once i put them on i am taller than A lot of boys.

I am 166 cm, making me 178.5 cm in heels, Oh -bloody sad.

hence during Prom night- it will be either kitten heels or a 182cm boy. :)

so Until that tall handsome lad appears, ---

a fact that you never knew #oo1

2010-08-22T15:06:00.003+08:00

i once was in the jewelry making line -_-

until i was earning only thirty cents per item. i got fed up.

and now, i have three box of left overs ;(

>D i am to make these random "facts that you never knew" . because i am random.

i will love you still my dear;

2010-08-19T23:00:00.003+08:00

the first time i saw this picture, "Who is that girl with Dylan :O" .

wow, it took me 15 seconds to realize that was me;

I've got not much to update on really,

okay fine i got a lot in my head, but i just wont say anything;

but i do have one important thing to update on

PROM, DUH. which senior isn't excited about Prom?

do visit the blog for more information alright?

sbsprom-2010.blogspot.com

nobody in the world, made me feel the way that you made me felt; i just want to be with you; i stole that from Made of Honor- i need to be saying whats in my heart. yeah right now is that you're so lame, i can die. go suck balls. like Joshua Says It, Suck balls-suck balls-suck.b.a.l.l.s.

:) have a nice day everyone.

you said 'i love you' and i said it too, the only difference is that i didn't lie;

2010-08-16T21:22:00.002+08:00

Niu Lang and Heavenly Weaver Maiden;

ever heard of the story of two lovers who meet only once every year on the seventh day of the seventh month, on the Magpie bridge above the silver river?

its the classic example of forbidden love, I'm not going to write a whole page of history, google them if you want to.

It's funny how two people see each-other every day and yet they can bare to not look into each others eyes.

dear you,

i know you're not stupid.

You know i am talking about you 99 percent of the time.

on a whole other note;

i swear that happens to me every day now.

Eternal love between us two,

Shall withstand the time apart.

make a wish and blow out the candles;

2010-08-11T00:36:00.003+08:00

on the ninth of August; i blew out candles for being seventeen.

the fact that i received 116 notifications on facebook in those twenty-four hours is overwhelming.

I would love to say thank you to all hundred and sixteen of you,

you made my day special (:

today i came back from school, i saw another six notifications; but one particular one caught my eye;

David Choi posted something on your wall;

cue to :O :O :O :O :O

shoot now say you're jealous.

As If that wasn't enough ;)

there is another one on twitter;

David Choi who? David Choi the Youtube sensation :D.

This my Dear Friends, is Samuel, Aina, Vivian , Me Myself , Nadira and Kah Yan;

We all belong in the Editorial Board; So to my Juniors out there, BE in the Editorial board, it is worth it- its all fun. until the end of the year ALL WORK.

peace out :O now that was lame.

i like how this picture somehow shows that i like striking things;

like red pencils and purple highlighters.

I need a getaway;

on the edge of seventeen;

2010-08-08T23:11:00.001+08:00

no matter how busy i am , i will still blog about this

because i know these special people deserve a post in my blog;

This Giant card is gonna be hanged somewhere in my room;

once i find the time to do so :P.

I decided to Leave the house looking like this, no i wasn't kidding.

This QiPao My dad got from Beijing just 3 days ago.

But i didn't went out just like that , there was this 'twist'

Scroll down to find out the twist :D.

On the Seventh of August, i was surrounded by hot guys,

no really good looking ,hot ,hot boys. :D

Exhibit A; Aaron. Pheewit.

Exhibit B; Dylan, Fuiyooo.

Exhibit C; Philip, Fulaaah.

Tell Me, Tell me You're jealous that i got hot male friends :P

I spent my Day with nine good looking boys and three sweet girls;

What, un-even ratio?

Esther,Stephanie, Ivy

Because I look nice. Ivy and Stephanie Don't :P

what's the twist you ask?

QiPao and Converse.

To Avoid me looking like a complete old person i did that.

It got me compliment from this random person while i'm in Pavilion Okay.

he said i look nice and cute :3. awwww. ftw.

Faster, faster my favorite part. Gifts :O

The Pink iPhone Case and Ties Of Love pendant;
The heart signifies love and the wrap lends it a touch of warmth.
he pendant reflects a special bond - strong yet delicate.

Its From Aarom, Wye Toong, Philip, Victor, Joshua, Alicia, Ivy, Ivan, Manoj and Stephanie

Thank You people ;)

I did mention that it is from Swarovski right?

I got a 570 Calculator too :O

and A London Call Girl Book.

and a whole other note from my daddy;

i got the wallet Sarah;

you only get to turn 17 once, and tomorrow is the day i do it;

2010-08-02T01:27:00.001+08:00

I don't even recall taking this picture why?

It's the month of august already; oh how time flies.

Let me tell you a funny thing;
Yesterday I received an email from topshop, another from juice works and a postcard from memory lane. Wishing me a happy birthday; wow. An alarm that is yelling at me telling 'YOU'RE GETTING OLD'

Yes it's my birthday month; to remind Stephanie the 600th time .
DON'T BUY ME ANYTHING THAT REPRODUCE. ;) yes that happened last week;

Curricular activity has finally ended, I am gonna be missing it. :) a full story about that in the next post but today or I like to call it tonight I want to clear some things out;

As much as I blog about Qin Ern or anyone it doesn't mean I like him or them, its just because that person has took a part of my heart making me feel special in some ways.

But on the othe hand when I don't blog about certain people, They are the one tha should be looking out. No I'm not kidding ;P

Alright it's 1:27 am .

Good night you;

every time i put on that red colored shirt, magic happens i swear;

2010-07-22T23:29:00.008+08:00

Every Picture comes with a moment, a moment that we pray to not forget. a moment that we are going to cherish for a long long time. So i'm going to tell you what happen that moment when the shutter was released.

This Is my Vice president Wan Jiun;

Wan Jiun : Omg Don't make me feel guilty laaaaa.

This Is Dylan;

Dylan : Kah Ee I like your camera, let me play with it

Kah Ee : ahaha, okay okay lets take a picture

Dylan : omg, i look bad change place, i look better this side.

At the end? the picture ended up that way too.

This is Stephanie;

Kah Ee : WHY ARE YOU GETTING SO CLOSE?

Stephanie : WHERE GOT.

Kah Ee : /push stephanies head/

Dylan took the picture.

Dylan : AHAHAH THIS IS SO CUTE!

This is Alicia and Stephanie;

Dylan Took the picture.

Dylan : KAH EE I CAN SEE YOUR LONGKANG .

yeah go figure what was he talking about.

This is Stephanie, Alicia and Dylan;

Dylan : I feel so loved

Stephanie : I WANNA HUG YOU

Alicia : /KICKS STEPHANIE/

Kah Ee Snapped the picture.

Priceless. Cat Fight.

This Is Dylan;

Kah Ee : I Shall now make Alicia Jealous.

Dylan : Ahahaha

Kah ee : /pulls tie/

Dylan : omg, you pulled my tie out.

This Is Nicholas, Dylan and Alicia.

Alicia : Why can't we be as loving as them?

Alicia : /put head on shoulder/

This is still Nicholas, Dylan and Alicia.

I have no idea what happened here, i was in my own little world

but i definitely know that all of our face shows a very. you fill in the blank

This Is Nicholas or as i Like to call him Qin Ern;

Qin Ern : /removes glasses from kah ee's face/

Kah Ee : What are you doing.

Qin Ern : Nothing ;D /wears/

Ahh , the stare of 'love' :P

This Is Alicia and Eric;

They were camwhoring but failing . so i said

Kah Ee : come let the pro show you.

/snaps picture/ AHH we all look good.

This is Alicia, Stephanie and Eric.

Kah Ee : :D HEHEHEH LASAGNEEEE.

yeah thats all.

This is Alicia and Dylan;

If you see closely she is feeding him something

Alicia : DYLAN WONG , EAT.

Qin Ern: You remind me of my mum!

Gwen was playing with my camera;

Kah Ee : /poses/ smiles/

This is Qin Ern;

Kah Ee : okay i do not have a proper picture with you;

Qin Ern : oh . really?

Kah Ee : Yes, now smile :D

Qin Ern : /does the face above/

This is Qin Ern, again;

Kah Ee : lets take a picture

Qin Ern : /reach out to the closest thing/

Kah Ee : /pulls the book away/

Once more, Qin Ern;

Qin Ern : My Hair is horrible.

Kah Ee : aww, let me fix it for you honey.

Kah Ee : /touches hair/

*extra* Qin Ern : /shows contented slash happy face/

yep, Qin Ern;

Kah Ee : there is something on your nose love;

Kah Ee : /pinches nose/

okay fine there was nothing

i just wanna hold it because its as cute as a button.

Finarry;

time just flies by so fast, today is my last photography meeting. I'm going to be missing it a lot. so much. no more buying cornflakes and eating it during the club hours. no more showing up late. No more everything that we photographers do best, camwhore.

dear you; - You just gave me ultimatum.

Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and back on the saddle;

2010-07-20T16:50:00.004+08:00

1) Valuable lesson.

The last time i attended civic class i was thought this valuable lesson . we were divided into two groups. Group A and Group B. we were given a task and Group A won, being in group B my group lost . Group A was given the authority to punish us and they did. Round 2 started this time group B won- we were asked "do you all wanna take revenge on group A? punish them back?" everyone shouted "YEAH! WHY NOT" . can you see it yet? if you don't let me explain. We were punished because we lost, but then we win- we were given a choice . A Choice to let them go just like that forgive and forget or just go on and punish them.

If you must know, the punishment was duck-walk and frog-jump.

give it time, i'll choose where i wanna go

2) Missing Class.

yes im saying "the last time" because i have been out of the class since Two Thursdays ago. and the worst part was when i got back to class, there was no homework? I don't know which is worst the fact that the teacher didn't bother about my class or the fact that i slacked 2 weeks. I can tell you i definitely like accounts more than doing those paper works, you ought to start crying anytime .

Truth to be told, i don't mind skipping class. I don't miss much.

3) National Service.

Wait huh? its that time of year again? where all the seventeen year olds keep checking on khidmatnegara.gov.my and texting to 15888. really, i wasn't really panicking if it was meant to be it will be, Surprisingly being optimistic is good. :D I got in. wot, i was looking forward to being in the national service actually. Why? I get to hold M16 you don't :O

YESSSS, after talking about the bloody M16 for almost 5 years, i can hold it. Finnarry;

4) Pens.

I wonder do you still read my blog?

Did you receive it? that new G-1 and ink refill.

oh, you're welcome ;)

5) The Last Lecture.

GAN JOE YEE! :)

Wow, i never knew you read my blog wei! not proud at all. just surprised :O Am hundred and one percent sure that we have a whole list of things we wanna tell each-other. Okay okay, sorry ! I don't leave messages on blogs a lot. tend to blog hop. like biong-biong-biong jump :D. Okay so i didn't see the post until today while i'm having my lunch today and i receive a text that i've been konnonya featured on your blog with Qin Ern. whoaah, i'm so baffled . Okay , now i feel bad :( you dedicated whole post to me and qin ern but i can only dedicate this small column for you. i hope you don't mind eh? :( . and I realize i don't have a picture with you that i can post up. Lets take one on thursday :D photography club meeting. i'll be bringing my camera!

Oh . I also Linked you! Link me back aight?.

and Oh Lets stop being so formal with GAN Joe Yee or LIM Kah Ee. formality is so . formal and boring.

and i don't really like to be discreet or cagey, and i realize my background is in a funny color :( no hidden message for you to read. sorreh. :D

loads of Love, x and o's Kah Ee. :D

party animals;

2010-07-18T23:34:00.004+08:00

1; Eric, Stephanie and I - showed up at 6 p.m. to Aivinashs.

2; Aivinash the birthday boy and Jack, let me tell you they went wild.

3; ahh, cannot deny we both look good here. ;P ;P ;P

4; Sang, Stephanie and I. we forced her to come really.

5; Stephanie ,Wye Toong and I. Wye Toong :D my sweet brother

6; there was a car, he was standing. boom :D looking good.

7; Stephanie and I, being bored and lifeless -.- what to do?

8; Jack Lai. :O the grape juice he was holding poped and it poured on me

9; Wye Toong and I. :)

10; before things got wild. really. WILD.

11; mirrors , i don't like them but its just so tempting no?

12; can you see it the atmosphere its like. underage clubbing

13; :P see. proof that we were dancing like mad.

14; the hungry faces of girls. scary really.

15; yes. i was dancing too *looks down in shame*

16; they got drunk , i must say :O

17; WAHAHAH DISCO BALL and SMOKE MACHINES.

18; :O i got drunk. tooooo. NO ALCOHOL was involved. thats the fun part.

thank you Aivinash, i had a blast.

news flash honey,

i wasn't even taken a back by what you state and wrote; what i was talking to him about on facebook are somewhat facts. pure facts, and the fact that both of you are over has nothing to do with me, calling me a bitch is fine. but saying that i am the cause of everything that happen the past two 1/2 months? you have crossed the line.

it hit me like a lorry of bricks; i like the fact that you were everything i wanted;

2010-07-15T00:47:00.004+08:00

(right click; view image to enlarge)

17 likes in three hours-

as i am posting this on blogger, Eunice Gan just liked the post :)
so that means eighteen likes.

its funny right how things work? when i was 'in-an-open-relationship' there was only two likes in three days, whoah and right now with Joshua. 18 in less than 6 hours. I cannot help but hear those tiny little comments from a friend saying "FINNARY". Seriously, what was that all about , thought i must support Muna the most ;P 3 seconds after the thing was posted up "Muna Liked" fuish. its as if she is staring at the screen on facebook.
but i was hurt by one fact that my childhood friend went errr... . . o.o don't judge me but it hurts in a way. a not so good way.
Lets talk about something else

i've been so stressed out about some photography things these days, sorry for me being absent form the blog-sphere. its 1;06 am right now, my focus is zooming out. i think i should sleep.
i'll be blogging. soon. i promise.

i less than three you.

2010-07-10T01:21:00.001+08:00

Around 7 pm the sky was seriously that dark and gloomy today :(

Well I'll give a full post tomorrow it's 1:30am now. Heading to sleep .

Bila kau menghilang musnahlah musnah impian untuk menggapai bintang terangi hidupku;

2010-07-06T18:58:00.004+08:00

this actually proves how.. Boring we soon-to-be IT takers are.

all gray. and . dull. and ~~doomed.~~

i cannot deny that it was fun that day :O

how did you spend your day today?

I didn't go to school

why?

Because i wanted to stay home and finish off those things i want to do

apparently i started crying doing it. FTW! :D

back to school tomorrow.

edit*

did i mention i am on my tuition centers billboard with stephanie,joshua,aaron,wye toong?

I AM HUNCHING OMG. -.-

By doing this i am promoting my tuition center too;

its really good :D. really.

for.the.win!

Okay so if you need me to advertise something you can reach me at

limkahee(at)hotmail(dot)com WAHAHAH.

ku mahu kau tahu engkaulah destinasi ku.

behind these hazel eyes;

2010-07-05T23:30:00.002+08:00

Even when the computer is right next to me I still want to blog with my phone. Because I am that tired lying on the bed

Funny thing how I could open to my english tuition teacher; she say I like boys who are geeky and specky ;O I would say that is not all, I would say talkative , annoying , very much all of them starts with the same initial . Go figure which . Wahaha . Not that hard really.

There are things I need to do; but I just couldn't bring myself to finish all those things why? I finally can say I feel so lethargic ;

Did I mention I was reading this book 'the last lecture' you can actually tell that I am a very boring person by the books I read 'five people you meet at heaven , for one more day, Tuesdays with morrie, have a little faith, immortal words, now the last lecture' until I find a boy who read those books for joy and not for a college report ;P ehh he'll be the one.

Oh dear I'm rambling again. Off to brush my teeth and sleep;

You know I can do it better than you I can do it even better in broken heels;

2010-07-05T00:50:00.002+08:00

you're gonna catch me if i fall right?

won't fall out of love, I won't fall out of, I will fall into you.

It's four a.m , I'm waking up to your perfume

2010-07-04T03:45:00.000+08:00

its not about who will be walking that path with me, because i know three little birds that would. but right now its about who will be waiting at the end of the path.

they say, at one point in life, you'll either get what you want or get an explanation why you're not getting what you want. so where is my explanation?

wait for me at the end of the path?

please?

your scent it still lingers on me.

You took so much already;

2010-07-02T13:28:00.001+08:00

Today was open day ;)
Apparently my teacher say that I have fans ;D and they disturb my class during studying hours -.- ahh. That is good right? Haha okay the pictures above was put together with the iPhone effect application.

Today I saw so many familiar faces ;)

Prefects are hypocrites .
Madam this , Sir this , whoah infront of us students so rough -.- .

Blah . I'm sitting at the couch waiting for my dad. Oh how I love wifi and a smart phone.

you held my hand and then you slipped away ;

2010-07-01T19:31:00.004+08:00

Kah Ee - Kah Chun

Doesn't it sound so cute? WAHAHA;

This was the 5th shot, he was laughing every single shot.

We do not Only have the "Kah's" in common but we love to annoy too;

I am 5'5 , go figure their height.

Let Me tell you a story;

The story of how a boy left a girl for a bird ;

and the girl had to turn to his best friend ;

and that boy was her best friend's ex.

complicated , no?

nah, a classic example of what is happening in the society now,

just not the bird really.

-July 1st 2010, i welcomed it with a blast-

-blast from the past-

What would you wish for if you have a wish?

right now, i would wish for time to turn back to about 18 months ago. making everything simple where we were still friends and good friends nothing more, back when i thought that you and i would never happen, back at the days where you didn't even give me any hopes. and i would like to relive february and march 2010 again, where you hurt me so much that i believe that liking you was a waste of time and i stopped loving you.

And anyone who knew us both can see ,We always were the better part of me

those four months was my happiest month i didn't think about much. i didn't even shed a tear. but today. today July 1st 2010, i broke down and cry . i meant it when i say my heart was going to be in a thousand fragment when you leave. your heart might not be broken for me but remember one thing. I Do. I really Do. no. i DID. its past tense now honey. (:

i can strongly say,

i loved you. ed. loved.

and i am not about to take the same path once again.

I admit I made mistakes ;

2010-06-30T01:52:00.005+08:00

Ahh , the Kah Ee - Joshua picture >D

The grainy effect was done using my iPhone . How noob of me eh?

What am I doing now? Blogging under the blanket because i cannot sleep.

So, parents teachers conference is on Friday. The day every student dread the most unless you're the best student . That's no doubt your parents will be proud. I am not proud for this term missed 3 papers 2 for being suspected the swine flu. 1 for waking up when the paper starts . Wow. I saw my results I didn't even get the last in class -.- surprise surprise no? I am no Eienstein but I can live through it.

It's going to be two a.m soon. But I just can't fall asleep. So many things in my head. Escaped one thanks to someone. Now there are a few more . Dayum . Today I learn, you must suck it up and just face the truth and do it. ;D it brings good results. :O

I think I better end it here before I fall asleep holding the phone :D

Dear you, I miss you•

Do i attract you,do i repulse you with my queasy smile? am i too flirty do i like what you like?

2010-06-27T02:21:00.001+08:00

-kah ee, emily, mei ling, alicia-

I call this one:

Emily : uhhh. is it on?
Mei Ling : SMILE WEI;
Alicia : HEHEHHE -AM I IN IT AM I IN IT?
Kah Ee : shut up and do the face.

we are the reason why the class isn't peaceful.

Yeah you guess correctly, i'm back to school.

getting all brain-occupied by work.

it feels good. rather than rotting at home really.

Let me tell you all something;

First there is Emily, she is the girl who well.. she can take out pink contacts and wear in in class. yeah you read me right. pink. and in class. wait. was it pink or brown. :O it looked pink in her class. In the nutshell she.is.vain.

Then there is Mei Ling. She sits next to Emily, but the scary thing is that well. she screams and pulls her ear every 2-3 hours. -.-' yes it is this "love and hate" relationship they share. She is the mean one D:

then comes in Alicia; you know her well enough. so introductions are not needed really.

Last but not least Kah Ee. she wears specs,cute,wonderful,friendly. :P but not a mount everest. Joshua Confirms all those facts :O he says i am. so I am not self-proclaiming things.

together. we bring no peace in the class.

FTW!

My heart leaps up when i behold a rainbow in the sky;

i wasn't kidding when i say i'm gonna find another you.

my name is kah ee, and I ~~have a commitment problem.~~ am a shopaholic.

Louis the II;

2010-06-24T00:02:00.001+08:00

my mother say retail therapy is good.

i rest my case. all woman should say that.

everyday, when i turn on the computer the first thing i see is your face.

as much as i wanna cry looking at it , each time - every single time i burst into laughter.

I realize that i shouldn't be regretting anything- but cherish those moments.

Today my Junior during girl guide asked me why i couldn't be the commander for the marching team, i told her i was old- i was in my last year of school. Her reply? "omygosh- i thought you were form two or form three!" which makes me 14 or 15. that is 3 years from my age. my first reaction was "oh dear- do i look that young?" apparently I do.

*proud* and i look the oldest among my friends. great.

cheerio;

i cant wait to see you again; it felt like i knew you from another life;

2010-06-22T15:37:00.003+08:00

everyone; this is my old friend, Joshua Loh - also known as Wen-Jun or as we chinese say, Handsome. He is taken . :D virtually and mentally by me. yes mentally. in my head he is mine. -.-' and virtually? well. err. Online Declaration he's mine. there you go. -okay, okay the reason i am talking about him is because today is the 22nd of June. the boys 17th Birthday.

Happy Birthday Joshua, Have a 'cracking' day :D

You know, its really hard to get male a present. :O and i am this poor little 16-not-even-close-to-17 unemployed girl who can't buy xBoxes. So i have to settle down with a tee.

the little things;

2010-06-20T00:18:00.003+08:00

My last post did not make any sense to anyone really; here's another, .

at times, it makes you wonder- what if prince charming were to appear out of nowhere and swept you off your feet? on a 30% discount price.

or what if - you were to live your childhood fantasies once again?

but right now, the only what if in my head is just-

what if i were to take that road back then?

crux ansata;

2010-06-19T00:32:00.004+08:00

"picture taken with my Canon powershot g11"

they say, an ankh is the key of life;

We say "i wont make it" a million times, and we made it every time;

School Is starting on Monday, finally- i never thought i would say this but seriously, i miss it so much. I hate to sleep at the blue hour every day, waking up at dusk, its back to sleeping at midnight and waking up at dawn.

yeah, i'll re-edit this post tomorrow; i want to sleep

dear stranger, you made me realize a lot in two days.

-re-write-

:) good morning people, 9;35 a.m. and i am already up since 8;20 a.m. why? Because my father say "you wont wake up early tomorrow" i just find the need to prove him wrong, because i am 'determined' like that. I've been having weird dreams this three days; and guess what? like all cliche moments, it involves a boy, a not so young boy. :O AHAHA . Alicia,Eric,Stephanie knows Who. :D :D . (Names are now going to be written in alphabetical order)

okeh. :D. bai;wttf

Growing old is mandatory ; growing up is optional.

2010-06-17T02:05:00.002+08:00

whoah, blogging seems like something i haven't done in quite awhile. yes, 4 days is awhile. As you all know i am on two weeks holiday, and i went for taylors College Life in One Day, or short CLIOD. why? because if i didn't i would be sleeping till 4 p.m. everyday. so, why not gain some 'knowledge' eh? I went for both IT Computing and Business. guess what? i slept at 4;30 a.m. both nights :D hurray.

June 9 2010; IT Computing.

This is my "i-only-got-two-hours-of-sleep-face"so stop staring .

The Lecturer Theater was empty; hmmm .

oh, i had both courses at the new lakeside campus.

One of their Mac Labs.

We were given a task :D since we have got nothing better to do, why not eh?
we won. *smiles*

The Alice Program.

June 16 2010; Young Entrepreneur's Day. Business.

Look at the amount of people . compare it to last week? the ratio of was 1 : 10.

It was also Young Entrepreneur's day at Taylors. Let Say I saw Philip's brother there screaming and promoting like a true business man :X on the bright side he doesn't read my blog.

iPhones,LV's, Juicy Coutures, Long Champs, Burberry around the campus are like well. :D lets not get there shall we? its so common its not even funny anymore.

guess who we saw? :D taking the science course. Yan Xin and Sharon. MORE FAMILIAR FACES :D.

Okeh, i got nothing to say anymore.

you know, spending time there- it makes me feel so young. no serious . you're not the oldest at your school anymore. it makes you feel so youthful :P alive. yeah give it 5 days. i'm gonna be sleep deprived once again.

2;41 a.m.

i should sleep. soon.

Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day. Teach a man to fish and you feed him for a lifetime

2010-06-13T04:25:00.001+08:00

great, four a.m. I just can't sleep "shows sad face" what do i Do? go camwhore with the webcam , what can i do more? eat? sleep? yeah. later. :P Breakfast and Bedtime.

1 ; Taken 2 weeks ago See the difference? yes new glasses.

2 ; My freshly french manicure , to cover the ugly yellow nail

3 ; I am cool like that, see the frames? :P B.U.M equipment

4 ; this is my not ready-for-camera face. all blur and '~~cute~~' :P

5 ; my Name is Kah Ee. well you all know that right? RIGHT?

6 ; I have cool shirts, you don't . From universal studios. SG.

7 ; cool shirt with Hue's. My Face shouts :3 :3 :3 right right?

8 ; my ~~bitch~~ face that you feel like punching the hell outta.

extra note ; Don't this glasses looks like Joshua's? my god. :O

see nao we have ~~couple~~ Similar glasses. FYL Joshua FYL :X

Speaking about Joshua. two nights ago, i was waiting for Joshua to touch down, AHAHA. It was at 5.30 a.m. you can see, that my future boyfriend is going to love the hell outta me, but right now i'll stick to flying Solo; for those out there who heard stuff that say "i stole some-one's-girlfriend'' sorry to crush all your hopes i don't do things like that. I might be a bitch, but i still have a dignity to keep. and just to clear somethings up, i have been single since the year 1993; never once a boyfriend unlike what you people are hearing. I like to play along when someone calls me Dahling, or Honey, -let say i never turn down a dare; You might see me close to boys, but honestly i click with boys more- they do not gossip on you like how girls do = =' Like recently on how there are rumors going around that Alicia and I, we like to steal boyfriends and we like younger boys. If you must know people, we are the oldest around the school -.-' looking at younger boys who are good looking doesn't mean LIKING them aight? And boys? don't flatter yourself , you guys are not that good looking anyways :P.

I just LOVE rumors, they tell you something that you don't know about yourself. the irony of life. :O someone else knows you better than yourself. I realize i like to post long long long in the middle of the night. but right now these new glasses are killing me. It is making my depth perception gone downhill , i need to hold the banister for the stairs because i missed a step the first time :O too bad for those who want me to fall. I DIDN'T WAHAHAH.

as for my Tittle of the post?, it says a lot really. too Much.

shoot, im falling i love again.

With Work. i swear at this rate i'll never get a boyfriend, .-.-' my mother is complaining that my typing could be heart next door. FML. sleep. bai.

;O USA and England Drawed. Oh well.

England-England-England.

a foolish consistency is the hobgoblin of little minds;

2010-06-10T01:17:00.003+08:00

the sage of concord.

i was quite fed up with my header, so here's a new temporary one because today i am just so tired, i slept for only 2 1/2 hours and went for an eight hour Programme and right now its 2 a.m. hmm, should be sleeping soon;

Jack, Daniel, Kah Ee, Bryan, Chun Seng, Dexter.

There is this thing, i can connect with boys more. and can you believe it- they are all fourteen. aww, last year i was taller than all of them, and now they are so tall *tears of joy* They grow up so fast *ftw* . this was on Tuesday, I was at Pavilion, and i 'bumped' into them .

Alicia and I.

I'm Holding Apricot, and Alicia's holding Ebony. Yes your eyes fool you not, my teddy bear is smaller than Alicia's.

Lets Pretend its the year two-thousand and nine again . Lets pick up from where we left up . We'll make it last all day . its been one year and three months . they always say no one can forget their first love, cute isn't it? nah. i beg to differ. some say if love blooms once more it will always be fairer, fresher, more gracious because it is a true love.

Well, this is after all the beginning of the end.

2010-06-07T03:34:00.001+08:00

Well it's 3:30 am ;D and I just learnt Greek . Woots . Okay sleep now needed ftw. Ps the thing say you're my honey and ts finally June . ;X simple words .

-Kah Ee

Don't let the bastards grind you down;

2010-06-06T15:37:00.004+08:00

Its that time of the year again, Teachers Day.

where teachers well, they act all weird and childish.

and students, we entertain teachers.

Hawt no?

Aivinash, Faiz, Megat, Mun Hou, Bryan.

Mun Hou, Confirm Show Stealer.

Tanesh and Wan Juin.

*cue to song* Dancing Queen, Feel the - - lets blog first.

us photographers worked our ass off and in 1070 pictures only 10 is ours.

we were permitted to wear our Red Shirt. According to Sir.

"if we sit one side and talk he can spot us easily"

We seriously need Walkie Talkies. Those In ear-secret- service kind.

Sir Shall be Papa Bear.

Then I shall Be Baby Bear Alpha.

Stephanie shall be Baby Bear Beta.

==' What. We are 'cool' like this.

No zoom burst, someone pulled me from behind :O

En Rahim, Ftw. ==' really. FTW.

omfg, Chin Came back, without warning i force hugged this boy.

Puan Ruslina came Back too :D

the puff; my good friend.

My daniel all grown up, faster *awwww*

I can never look good next to him.

Today Marks the 31st day.

imy

oh that sounds so 'LoveSickFoolKindaThing'

Wahaha, :D i'm so unstable its not even funny anymore.

Du Sublime au ridicule il n'y a qu'un pas;

2010-06-05T18:01:00.006+08:00

there is only one step from the sublime to the ridiculous;

we took risks, we knew we took them;

I dropped a tear in the ocean, the day you find it is the day I will stop missing you and stop loving you; When i was going through my files, i found a file . specially named after you. When i clicked on the file, there was pictures of us laughing. even when i look horrible in those pictures, i want to relive those moments. don't you just love mixture of feelings, what i felt back then wasn't real. he was going through a broken heart i was going through an infatuation state;

someone once told me my smile never leave the face. i realize that too , frowning is like the end of the world for me. so :) smile 'la' oh dear, i am mixing up two person in one passage hmm. this is stupid :X

but now. its all gonna be focused on Jay, JayJay Loh that is.

At least he lets me hug him without whining.

he is now my wallpaper.

what you did the past 2 days was immature .

what i did the past 2 days was just plain stupid.

what he did the past 2 days is provoking me.

thats just the way i roll;

2010-06-04T19:09:00.003+08:00

i heart you;

nah , not you Qin Ern. Though i Do heart you most of the time and I am so selfish i do not want to post this picture on Facebook. ♥ -Its that expression that i heart more, the really sad longing expression that says I love You- But its one of those one sided i love yous aight?

Right now, all i feel inside is pure evilness because you have provoked me. very very high provocation . wait is that a word?

okay, here i am again- promising i'll add more to the post after i shower, hmm where was i? ahh- where i am in deep deep denial. even though it wasn't real for you, it was very real for me. oh shoot- one sided talking again. oh well.

then again, here's a reply to it;

I love you too ;P For The Win, as if someone is loving me right now.