im teh giant teddy bear.

i have this really long emo post that i want to post up.
should i?

but right now.
:3 lets focus on my post title

remember my face?

its so sad that i can't remember that happy smile of mine

back to the post title.



:3 see people agree. i AM hugable.

if you're wondering about the personal message of mine
being the commander of a marching team.
it feels good shouting at them for small reason.
._. im gonna make them cry for mummy at the end of the day.

damn those people .
they tell me to wait three more days.
THREEE more days for the supid connection

i went to sleep at 6.40 a.m; *warning. emo lovey-dovey post ahead*

19% of the population don't care about our problems.
80% of the population is happy we have these problems.
but there is still a 1% hope.
if you don't like emotional-lovey-dovey post.
please don't bother scrolling down.

if he don't love you by now.
he will never ever love you.
fiction or fact?

they say the twitching of your left eye means someone misses you.
i say its just the lack of sleep. seriously.

i keep telling myself. its not worth it crying over you.
but you know what they say. tell a lie. often enough, loud enough,long enough,
people will start to believe you. using that technique but not only to people but to myself.

they also say that.
We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.
4 years ago i saw you as the most immature brat I've ever seen.
well. you're still immature right now really.
but I'm just human. i lost in the foolish game i call love.

*10.38 p.m. July 6*
as i am typing this.
he is out of my head.
i feel irrelevant.
i AM.
irrelevant.
whatever it is.
he's out.
I'm glad.
but lets hope when i wake up.
he's still out.

“Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you'll die today”

4.32 a.m;

hmm. i feel hungry
no. i did not wake up at 0433 a.m to eat breakfast.
as far as i know. .__. am still wanting dinner.
no. i ate. ;3 but a very early dinner. / late lunch. kind of thing.


bah whatever.im going to sleep.
.__. i think. >.>'

*and im going to wake up at 7 a.m*
this, my friends.
is a form of self-torture
never. i repeat.
never. try this at home

actually. no.right now all i want and need. is just an escape from reality

one lined post ahead. and random notes.

Advice is what we ask for when we already know the answer but wish we didn't

seriously.
i got so much to blog about
just no good internet connection.
-.-' damn they lied.
the promise they would come on wednesday.
then thursday.
then friday.
Now. NEXT Monday t(-.-t)

untitled ii.

another untitled post.

am not going to even bother typing one word. . .

one. :3 lalala. -.-' lol. nvm,

phil. i hope you're okay.
people around you are worried sick.

untitled.

*skuad. ke kanan lurus*
*skuad. pandang depan*
*skuad. begerak ke kiri; kekiri-- pusing*

i've been shouting those few lines for 2 hours non stop D:
i think they are fed up with me :X

the last 10 minutes.
D: gone. "skuad. became skad. pandang became pandung.
-.- pandang depan i can go pandang kiri D:

*stares at the complicating map*

cough .

2 days ago i fell of the stairs.
today.
the heavy lab chair fell on my toe
ya la. i'm that clumsy. D:

D: the time table is changing.
i want puan hamimy. D: i dont care.
i'm sorry i said that She's an evil teacher.
i still want her.
she makes me laugh in class.

i open my eyes. i try to see but im blinded
by the white light.
i cant remember how i cant remember why.
i'm lying here tonight.

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thinking.

. . . *cricket chirping*

Kah ee is going to do the third-party talk.
Kah ee feels all lonely in this big house. (cough. not so big la)
Kah ee wants to watch transformers. (someone tak ajak me go :X)
Kah ee fell off the stairs and sprained her ankle.
Kah ee is missing 3 people.
Kah ee is getting very. very. lazy.
Kah ee wants to do her moral paper. -yeah. :)
Kah ee wants that 13' mac book pro. D:

kah ee dont like to talk in 3rd party way. -.-'

kah ee shall reveal her lurve affair in the next post ;3
stay tuneed.

in case you don't know ;

i'm moving houses :3
and my internet is not coming back till thursday or so.
now :D i'm not at Cyber Cafe.
nor i'm at my grandmothers.
i stole someone's connection D:
sorry la. "borrow" :)
kah ee can't live without the internet.
i need to talk to some special someones.
haha. :3 Stephie,Allie,Joshie these special someones.
i'm trying to upload some pictures.
to keep my blog alive.
meanwhile do keep track of my twitter.
:D i actually updated it. -.-' see no one reads it.

thx to all this crapola's im having fever,flu,D: everything.

when i get back to school give me a hug would you?


pictures.

while my dad is busy packing outside this is what i am doing.



-i tried acting beetchy. epic fail weh.. -.-' "YOU" look better doing it
-this picture will be removed if ONE person comment on it :P

p.s *steph.alicia. we all know who is :you: dont we?*


this is mah room ;D
see the unboxed box?
yeah. ._. there is another 13 boxes downstairs.
the walls.
its red in color.
this picture shows the paint no mercy.

until we meet again.
:DD next thursday or wednesday or..i shall steal this connection again tmrw.

stabbed. -- i curi-ed this tag :D because im bored.

Bold the statements that are true to you.
Italise the statements that you WISH are true.
Leave the fibs alone.
Then, "stab" 5 people to do the same test.


I miss somebody right now.
I dont watch TV these days.(call me lifeless but tv kills)
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I've been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.( i know i would be one)
I believe that honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse. (sorry to say. i swear a lot at times)
I have changed mentally over the last year. (in some ways..yeah)


I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart. (cough, note the italic font)
I've broken someone's bones. ( i wish)
I'm paranoid sometimes. ( ;3 very)
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe , free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.

I have at least one sibling. (i want a brother :3)
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past. ( ;3 eheh. teh pink wig. lol)
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings. (a. l.o.t.)
I have a hidden talent. (is stalking a hidden talent?)
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have. (yeah!)
I have a lot of friends. ( tell me. do i? i know i do but do i really?)
I'm currently single.

I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.

I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis. (hoi i dont watch tv)
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I want to have children in the future. ( ;3 2 boys 1 girl ahahha)
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.

I am shy around the opposite sex. (yes im very thicked faced)
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.(cough i dont call it a friend anymore ;3 sorry to say)
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends. (i now feel selfish, but i really WANT to. )
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it. (come on la u must admit :D)

I am happy at this moment!
I'm obsessed with guys.
I study for tests most of the time. ( I wish)
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.

Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses. ( :3 tell me . who doesnt?)
I fall for the worst people. (.... *stare at alicia and stephanie and ask do i?*)

I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I somehow enjoyed this thingy !!! (note the word somehow)
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes. (;X haha i do ok i do)
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse. (:3 i want a ponnie.)
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet. (-.-' )

I talk in my sleep. ( i mumble)
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie. (is starbucks caffeine?)
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is. (i know what it is)
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary. ( :D heh yeap!)
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.


i want to stab someone.
no serious.
with a knife.
not like tag stab.
KILL KILL stab :DDD

ok people good night.